Author: Angela Coulter
Posted by: Angela Coulter | on March 28, 2018
I often notice energy themes that are present in my sessions that come up to be addressed or resolved. For instance, a theme could be many people experiencing an issue such as feeling stuck in their jobs or relationships. The theme that has been showing up for several years and is amplified right now is about becoming and allowing your true, authentic, powerful self to emerge. This is the version of you that you may call your higher self, or spirit self. It’s the part of you that is full of infinite wisdom and love and knows itself as eternal. It is everything your thinking mind, or your ego mind is not.
Our ego has been designed to perceive this world through a very limited lens, primarily one of fear and feeling separation from our higher self, source energy (God) and others. Our true self, which exists in Oneness, knows no limitation or separation. True you vibrates in love and therefore, you vibrate and exist in only love, but we all forgot that this is true and often are very far from being in love with ourselves! What I do to open up this part of me, is connect inward everyday to get a taste of that love and bliss that is always available for me. This isn’t a mental connection, it is a connection through BEing and existing in the present moment.
So back to expressing the “power of you” theme. We are in a space where we are being called to step into our true selves in a bigger and more authentic way. All that stuff that we hold within us that is of fear, lack, unworthiness, limitation, powerlessness is coming up to be resolved, so we can hold more of our true light. This is a frequency thing were these lower vibrational emotions hold us down, but as we love and release them, our higher vibrational self can emerge.
I was talking with a good friend about this today and of course she has been experiencing some of this too! See, the theme is loud as it presents itself! We were discussing how scary it is to show our whole self to others. The light and the dark parts! Often, we hide the parts of ourselves that we judge as bad or wrong, and only show our “good” face to the world. The face that we want people to see and the face that we think will get approval and love. At the end of the day, we are all just seeking love and we think that if don’t act or be a certain way, we won’t get it, which is the scariest thing in the world! So, we judge and hide the version of us that won’t rock the boat or potentially anger someone. We can be so afraid of what people think about us, that we often will bend who we are to please them.
When you’re only showing the world one part of you that you think they want to see or hear, you’re actually not bringing in the people or experiences that are a match for you, because you’re hiding the whole of you. Energy attracts like energy and people attract like people, so if you’re holding back on being YOU as the whole true you, you’re missing out on some really good stuff! Relationships that are a close match and experiences that are more in resonance with what your really want.
I had another experience lately where I was meditating with some friends in a Native American nature reserve and we were playing crystal bowls and drums while shifting some energy. We began our practice while no one was around even though we knew there were other people in the park. After while, we were really flowing with energy and here I am, beating this drum (I’ve always had some aversion to drums, so I was doing it to get over it!)… so of course, some people walked towards us and I opened my eyes upon hearing the crunch of their footsteps. I immediately got embarrassed and wondered what they were thinking. Another part of me asked myself, “Who cares?” A deeper part of me said, “I do… What if they judge me and think terrible thoughts about me? Who’s that white girl banging on a drum like she’s a native American? Who does she think she is letting her freak flag fly? She doesn’t even like drums anyway!” (Although I really was getting into it!)
I then got a message from my higher self, saying that I would be putting myself out there in much more bigger ways than this. If I am to show up as the bright, shiny true version of me, I would have to get comfortable with getting uncomfortable (at first). Sooooo, I’ve been feeling into other ways I’ve been holding myself back and I have a feeling more of me will be coming out to play soon!
So…Are you ready to ‘fly your freak flag” so you get to be more of you? In doing so, more of your gifts get to surface and you get the shine the brightest! What is holding you back? Let’s do this!
Trinity Energy Progression Facilitator/Practitioner
Posted by: Angela Coulter | on March 19, 2018
Perception. Everything in your life, good or bad, and whether you think it is good or bad, is based upon your perception. Do you see the glass half-empty or half-full? If you ask for blue and get yellow, are you angry or upset that you did not get blue? Or do you think, “I can work with yellow”? Or maybe you imagine what all the wonderful possibilities of yellow are? Even better, do you say “Actually, yellow is perfect for me, thank you Universe!”
What you perceive creates your reality. “Change your mind, change your life.” It sounds easy, doesn’t it? If only that were so!
I have spent a large portion of my life asking “Why is this happening to me?” or “Why am I always sick?” or “What did I do to deserve this?” You get the idea. Then one day, when I was at a very low point, the realization struck me that, “I am sick because I keep telling myself I am sick. Things don’t get better because I won’t allow things to be better. Stop being a victim and do something different. You are what is in your way, and it is not anyone else’s fault or responsibility.”
My first step was to start walking while listening to meditative cds. I started feeling better when I started allowing myself to just be. I started paying attention to my intuition and what it was telling me about my health (and my life). I spent a lot of time worrying whether my intuitive gifts were “right,” and if they were “good enough” for me to pay attention to. Through books, various classes, and healing modalities, I ended up at a Trinity Practitioner class taught by Jennifer Cunnings. This was very awkward for me, as I kept thinking “I don’t belong here, I have no idea what I am doing, and my intuitive gifts are inferior to everyone else’s.” And so on. The negative mind chatter was in full force! However, through that class, I met some lovely people and made at least one lifelong friend, a true soul sister who talked me into going to Mount Shasta. (Thank you, Kris!) I think everyone would agree that the experience in Mount Shasta was not just beautiful, but also life-changing for all who attended… and I met more lifelong friends!
Perception and manifesting go hand-in-hand. Just look at what is showing up for you in your life and that will tell you what the state of your mind is. Personally, I think we are all great manifestors. I know that I am. I have manifested some pretty crappy things into existence in my life, but I have also manifested really beautiful and life-affirming things as well. There is a power to words, especially in what you tell yourself. What you believe/perceive about yourself becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy. If you say “I can’t,” then that becomes your reality. Growing up, I was told what I could not do and what I was doing wrong. Nothing I did was ever good enough; I just needed “to toughen up and quit being so sensitive.” Therefore, I have spent most of my life beating myself up for (a) not being perfect and (b) being too sensitive, even actively trying to be a tougher, harder personality. No wonder I became so ill! Now I realize that my sensitivity is my greatest gift, and of course I am not perfect. That is why I am here on Earth in the first place. I am a work in progress.
In the Winnie the Pooh universe, Christopher Robin tells Pooh “You are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think.” When Pooh tries to relay this bit of wisdom to his friends, he gets all mixed up and says “You’re braver than a bee, and taller than a beam, and you are smarter when you’re pink”! Even though the message according to Pooh seems nonsensical, it was exactly what his friends needed to hear, and thus, perfect. (Better, in my opinion!)
In conclusion, if there is something in your life causing you unhappiness or discord, try changing your perception. Remember: You ARE enough! And your gifts, whatever they may be, are perfect.
And we are all smarter when we’re pink!
Trinity Energy Progression Facilitator/Practitioner
Posted by: Angela Coulter | on March 12, 2018
As I attempt to write this article for all of you amazing beings, I find that my fear is building within my body, as the obligation to write this article has forced me out of my comfort zone and to step out of the closet. Which ironically, has been my statement or affirmation for 2018. I keep telling others that this is my year to do just that and be my true authentic self…but stepping out of the closet just doesn’t sound elegant or enough. Therefore, I have decided to affirm that I am breaking free from the chains that bind me (placed on myself) and keep me from being who I truly am meant to be. I am choosing to Be Me and Be Free. However, I must confess that actually putting myself out there for the whole world to see is quite scary and it’s easy to “write” this affirmation down but very different to truly act upon it.
Working in a corporate environment for years, I often find myself not being true to me, as I usually put the needs of others before myself. This most often has turned into unnecessary stress and illness. The stress and illness forced me to take a good hard look at my life, which led me to seek my spirituality. Through this, I’ve learned techniques and tools to assist in my survival in this environment. Typically, I’m able to keep my body (mainly hives) in a calm state using these techniques; however, when stress overload and/or not being my authentic self occurs, my body graciously reminds (or shouts out) for me to wake up and remember. I listen often; however, at times the fear gets the better of me and I shut down. I desperately seek to be my own unique self, speak my truth, and shine my light while not worrying what my colleagues or anyone for that matter will think of me and judge me.
A good friend recently told me that my job is to remove the fears that keep my light hidden. Wow. That really resonated with my soul as I can feel it when I dim my light down to make other people comfortable….including myself. Why did I do that? It’s time for me to allow. Do any of you ever feel like you adapt to make others comfortable?
So, how do I find the courage to keep my light shining strong, keep my vibration elevated at all times regardless of any situation (good or bad) and stand up/stand strong in my belief that I am best as my true authentic self? Fear has so many layers in me….where the heck does it all come from? Just when I think I’ve worked through and processed it, wham! Another layer. However, I know this is all part of my journey…and Trinity has assisted in my awakening. I am so very grateful to have had the amazing opportunity to travel to Mt. Shasta, CA this past September to attend the Trinity Facilitator training as this experience was life changing and assisted me in processing through so much fear, allowing me to accept and remember my divinity.
So, if you do not “get” anything else out of this blog, I hope you get this…when I do my daily self-work, I am able to shift and process through so much more “stuff.” Every single day and every single step, I get a little closer to living my truth. Stand in that mirror and look at your beauty. Tell yourself how much you love yourself, meditate, journal, say your creation statements. Invest in you…YOU are amazing and worth it!
I choose to do my daily self-work, to just be me and love myself unconditionally. It’s that simple. Fear or love….fear no longer serves me and I enthusiastically choose love…unconditional love, it’s my super power and it is yours…I encourage each of you to embrace your super power and live your truth…authentically. I Am!
I love you all fiercely!
Trinity Energy Progression Facilitator/Practitioner
Posted by: Angela Coulter | on March 5, 2018
When we open up to our true self, opportunities for growth constantly manifest. Although I continue my energy healing work/teaching and artistic creations, my journey is currently colored by studying Yoga. This is another life-long endeavor which has already brought so much joy! Meditations and breathing techniques during my practice seem to have brought me even closer to my soul. I focus more inwardly more so than before.
To follow find some breathing techniques that I have found most valuable in my yoga practice:
- The first one is called Viloma pranayama. You may sit or lie down for this technique. Inhale for two seconds in the lower part of your abdomen and then pause for two seconds holding the breath. Inhale again for two seconds into your chest area and hold your breath. Inhale one more time filling up the lungs completely and then hold your breath for 5 to 10 seconds. Slowly and deeply exhale. Repeat 10 to 15 times
- The second technique is called Anuloma pranayama. Sit in a comfortable position, keeping your back erect. Lower your head to rest your chin between your collarbones. Inhale deeply through both nostrils and hold your breath after inhalation for 5 to 10 seconds. Bring your right index finger to the nose and gently push on the right nostril and exhale slowly through the left nostril.Repeat with the other side. Try to keep the inhale as long as the exhale.
Perhaps you may enjoy giving this a try before your meditations. They may help your focus and concentration.
Much love to all of you,
Trinity Energy Progression Facilitator/Practitioner
Posted by: Angela Coulter | on February 26, 2018
I am inspired about a conversation we had in a Trinity Energy Progression Practitioner Share the other nigt. Conversation came up about how we are tired of the game, and that there is a reluctance within us to respond, engage or feel anything toward the 3D stage and all the absurdity that is being played out upon it. It feels that we are left with an apathetic shrug and descend from its drama. In this divergence we desire to be removed from the game all together. Though in this desire of disconnection from the plot and its set, it has severed connectivity to the deeper level of who we are. In here avails an opportunity to mend and grow from. This conversation awakened something similar within myself that I want to explore and understand. The following is my attempt to grasp meaning or understanding. In this place of finding meaning, I will bring tribute to my ego and mind, and give way for it to try to work it this out, before releasing or relinquishing the reigns of control to guidance and a higher or more valid principal of myself. Because of course, my right foot is still more firmly planted in 3D than my other foot is in the unknown. Hopefully, this next section will loosen that foothold and turn the balance to being brilliantly planted into the unknown.
We in the healing community find ourselves in a strange and unfamiliar place. In fact, we are so much in the place that we are, it is hard to look at it from another perspective. What am I talking about, you ask. This may resonate with you in some way. I hear from others in our circle, as well as experience and feel myself, the lackluster of this 3D being version of self. There is a veil that has been lifted that has taken away my innocence. The realization that there is no “Santa Claus” or that Barbie and Ken are only dolls or that this “reality” is nowhere in proximity of the truth to being real is creeping into my consciousness. Sure, I have “known” this for some time. But just like when I was 7, I knew that playing house may not be exactly the same as being a grown up. Though when that transition took place, it was so much more radical and different than I could comprehensively fathom. So here now, I find myself on the fence between two worlds. One foot is the drama-rich place of life and believing it is real, and the other foot is grazing the surface of the unknown. This is a frustrating place to be. A lot of trauma and drama is surfacing as I face this. How are you responding to it? I know I am not dealing so well. I am cocooning into a void much like an emotionally unavailable teenager retreating into their bedroom to avoid both the world they came from and the world they are expected to grow into. So yes, I am sulking, maybe many of us are. Though we are a bit more awake than the teenager, in that we can see that something is up. We could say in teenage vernacular that “life sucks” and “why me,” BUT we know that is not true. We are NOT alone and this not a self-centered me thing, but an US predicament. I believe we hear the phrase “Toto, I’ve a feeling we’re not in Kansas anymore!”
Yes, I understand, that this “hormonal”-like rush is taking place and that we are being positioned and made ready for the next stage. But here on this rolling scale (depending on the day and the hour), is a rage, an impatience, or an unimpressed vesicle who at the end of the day is just more and more blasé to it all. And friends, this is where I judge myself and say something just isn’t right about the loss of that loving feeling. This is where it resembles the antithesis of a what it may mean to be an energy healer. So, while being on the verge of an existential crisis, I’d like to step away from that ledge all together. And here is where I remember (or remind myself to remember to remember) that this is what happens when we give reign to the ego. That part who loves to hate the drama and hates to love the action of being hooked into this wild ride of unreason.
In taking a look at all this drama and coming to the realization that it is time to let go, it is also time to let go of the belief that there is futility in the act of letting go. And ok, I’ll say it, it is time for allowing the big shift to occur, the big step to take place, and the ultimate “get into our big girl/boy pants” moment is now. It is time to give our ego a big hug and huge expression of gratitude and thanks to all that it has done. But we acknowledge that its reign is over and we are attending the coronation where the so-called crown is to be placed upon our higher self, our connected self ,our all loving and trusting and knowing self. This is a new time and place where time is timeless and place is placeless. This is for our best, where we are truly free to be our most ultimate expression.
Thanks for the metaphorical journey (kool-aidless of course :-))! I love all of your bright lights. Eager to join you through this evolution and on our next level of being.