Posted by: Angela Coulter | on June 24, 2019
I’m ready to start living life to the fullest. This line seems so cliché as it seems to be the latest buzz concept. Why might this matter? Sometimes I can be a bit of an “evolution” snob. ROTFL; ultimately, SO WHAT if anyone or everyone else is focusing on this? It’s MY priority.
To me, “living life to the fullest” has to be based on an internal shift of belief as well as actions. That’s where this comes in.
Recently I was realizing that I really want to increase my water intake and keep that consistent, day-to-day. Years ago, I heard that it’s important to drink half of your body weight in ounces in water; and to match an additional 2 ounces of water for each ounce of caffeine consumed. Although I share this concept regularly, I’ve yet to achieve it myself.
THEN, I recently heard a twist on this which was paradigm-shifting …. What I heard is that the break-even point of water consumption is the half your body weight in ounces; and that if you really want to fuel your body properly, you’d up that by 20-30%. Think about this …. the MINIMUM amount of water to consume is half your body weight in ounces; NOT that this is the ideal goal. That’s another 20-30 PERCENT.
This was one of those life-changing moments …. A “kerplunk” moment …. All of the things I suggest to people, I share about, I coach people to embrace and that I am not living myself …. came front and center for me.
Combined with the regular discussions I have with close friends on evolving including fun concepts such as “being versus doing,” “living who we are,” “living from the present” …. I shifted to ….
IT IS TIME to start putting into action those day-to-day activities which support what I believe in, and support my emerging self … who I truly am versus where I’ve been living from.
Concurrent taking action is continuing to do the inner work which clears the way to make the action easier to integrate into my day-to-day life. Want to know more about the inner work, and where many find themselves right now? If so, check out Angela Coulter’s recent discussion around this via her “Living the Shift” livestream/podcast.
I started thinking of the different elements I’ve been exploring, am interested in making part of my regular “don’t need to think about it” activities ….. I realized the perfect acronym for me is “Dragonfly” as that’s a personal totem for me. I have dragonflies in various forms all over my home, yard, vehicle, clothes. Dragonflies represent transformation, change, lightness, flexibility, self-awareness, power. Just recently, I was traveling and came across dozens and dozens of Dragonflies in various fields. I took this as a very profound sign and message. I loved seeing how integrated they are into the environment which reminded me of how I’d like self-care activities to be in my life. You can see a video of the lovelies here: Being Your Emerging Self ~ Dragonflies.
Here’s what I identified as the actions of being I am now integrating into my daily life to reflect and support me:
D = Direct your thoughts, starting with when you wake up … set your intention for the day
R = Renew yourself through meditation, quiet time, etc.
A = Ask for guidance ~ such as “Show me the way” (credit to Nommy)
G = Gratitude ~ express gratitude in every moment, every thing
O = Oxygenate ~ I use a BEMER, breathe deep, yoga; however you do it, it works
N = Now ~ live from the present now, in each situation
F = Fuel yourself through a minimum of half your body weight in ounces of water plus 20-30%
L = Listen to connect ~ Look around you to observe ~ Live from Love
Y = You ~ Make yourself a priority as a reflection of your commitment to you
“With every act of self-care your authentic self gets stronger, and the critical, fearful mind gets weaker. Every act of self-care is a powerful declaration: I am on my side, I am on my side, each day I am more and more on my own side.”
~ Susan Weiss Berry
This is how I’m choosing to support my emerging self. What supports your emerging self?
I invite you to join me and others in allowing and supporting your emerging self so that you too can choose to live your life from being your emerging self.
With curiosity and gratitude,
Posted by: Angela Coulter | on May 25, 2019
We were joined at the hip, on identical paths and inseparable. 33 years of marriage and we thought NOTHING would ever separate us. We’d been through it all: heartache, triumph, birth, pain, celebration, death, achievement. Victory after victory, loss after loss. Events that would challenge our commitment to each other. We grew closer with each one. How does a couple make it through all of that and not split up? Because of their undying love for each another. Each challenge made us stronger and tighter. We prided ourselves on being unshakable, unstoppable. NOTHING would EVER pull us apart.
We were an unlikely pair. One day I fell for him and my life would never be the same. We married quickly. I recognized him as my one and only. He composed a special song for me when he proposed (he’s not even a composer). He sang the special song to me (he’s not even a singer). He played the piano while singing the special song to me (he’s not even a piano player). He was motivated to learn all of these things by love. He called the song, “Sandy.” My heart melted and I would forever be his. Ahhh, youth. Those were the days, exciting and free!
We stuck by each other’s side through thick and thin. Shared our heartaches, goals, and dreams. We grew together as one. He was my world and I was his. Endless challenges popped up, including kids. We said we would never leave each other. If we made it through all of this, NOTHING would EVER pull us apart. Our vows were unbreakable and our love was unshakable.
We had stayed together for love, loyalty, and life. Then everything SHIFTED and it shifted HUGE. Things change, people grow, souls evolve. Over the last few years, we have been going in different directions and we struggled to hang on.
LOYALTY – The ego wasn’t going to let it crumble easily.
LOVE – We loved each other too much to let this masterpiece go. Just needed to work through it, find more solutions.
LIFE – We needed to live more life together, expand our experience. Ego was trying desperately to hold things together, but the Higher Self had other plans. We thought love was keeping us together, but really, LOVE WAS PULLING US APART.
What does all of this mean? Nothing in life has any meaning except the meaning we give it. My perception of love and relationship used to be one of lack. I was looking for others to love me to fill a void within myself. My view has changed drastically. Through my new lenses, I see that splitting apart is the “Greatest Love Story of All.” It’s not the same story that began 33 years ago. That one was of romance, togetherness, and attachment. Our love story now is the one with no conditions, attachments, or obligations. The one where two people discover their truth and align with their highest vision regardless of the other. When two people no longer align in the higher vision of their truth together, it’s time to move on. Otherwise the relationship would be poisoned with lack, limitation, and resentment. We were designed this way. It’s our innate internal flow. The spiral of remembrance will teach us this.
Conscious uncoupling, that’s what this is. With an open heart and an open spirit, two people allow their hearts to move gently apart. They honor each other completely and allow the pure resonance of their intentions to align in Oneness. It can only be done with pure, genuine, unconditional love. There is awareness, and truth, and dignity. There need be no resentment or guilt. Sadness naturally arises as the ego grieves its masterpiece. Tears fall at the loss of identity. Tears are the authentic expression of the soul and are to be honored in a breakup; however, they are to be funneled through with full trust of moving forward. Two hearts break and one heart falls. Our hearts fall together in Oneness. That’s the beauty. We’ll always be connected, we’ll always be in Oneness, just with a new, independent energetic alignment. It takes a lot of courage, strength, and trust to understand and choose this path.
I realized the Greatest Love of all is really the greatest love for myself. I struggled to find love in my youth. I thought it was outside of myself, so I was forever searching… and hubby filled that void, for a long while. Now it is complete within myself. I have full unconditional love for myself, and I’m free to explore my journey in the most optimal way. This brings to mind the words to one of my favorite songs, “Greatest Love of All” by Whitney Houston. This is my beautiful tune…
“I decided long ago, never to walk in anyone’s shadows
If I fail, if I succeed, at least I’ll live as I believe
No matter what they take from me, they can’t take away my dignity
Because the greatest love of all is happening to me
I found the greatest love of all inside of me
The greatest love of all is easy to achieve
Learning to love yourself, it is the greatest love of all”
What a heavy weight lifted! No attachments, no obligations to each other. No trying to hold things together or control the outcome. Let it be. There are no words to describe this form of freedom. It’s COMPLETE DELIVERANCE from bondage and burdens. I have never felt this way before EVER in this lifetime. I hope you can experience it, too, in whatever form it takes for you!
What is the lesson here? That the “Greatest Love” is unconditional; it is the love of ONESELF. If it’s truly unconditional, you can let someone go purely, exclusively, respectfully, so they can explore their journey apart from you. I no longer need him to fill a void, because there is no void. I unconditionally walk away. No strings attached. I am forever changed and I have expanded beyond my former self. I am so much more than this relationship and this persona. I am pure consciousness embodied as Sandy Vaught Anthony. As consciousness, I am aware of myself in physical form. I am free to be someone else. I am free to grow and expand beyond my wildest dreams. Perhaps the biggest misperception is that this is a loss. IT IS ACTUALLY A GAIN. I still have my beautiful memories. I am not judging my creation. My love is forever, and the memories with him are forever. I am immensely grateful for the rich lessons I have experienced. In fact, writing this blog is helping me with embracing and completing this cycle.
I am enough.
I’M THE ONE I’VE BEEN LOOKING FOR ALL ALONG. Time to move forward in full bloom. I am a beautiful rose twisting and twining out of the soil, allowing her blossoms to take full form. Artistry in motion and master of emotion. As the petals fall, they dance and swirl, and a new birth takes place. This reminds me of another one of my favorite songs called “The Rose” by Bette Midler. I performed a solo lyrical dance to this song years ago and it still has relevance for me today. This is exactly how I feel! Its timeless message activates the seeds of the higher heart. Feel into it.
“Some say love, it is a river, that drowns the tender reed
Some say love, it is a razor, that leaves your soul to bleed
Some say love, it is a hunger, an endless aching need
I say love, it is a flower, and you, its only seed
Its the heart afraid of breaking, that never learns to dance
Its the dream afraid of waking, that never takes the chance
It’s the one who won’t be taking, who cannot seem to give
And the soul afraid of dying, that never learns to live
When the night has been too lonely and the road has been too long
And you think that love is only for the lucky and the strong
Just remember in the winter, far beneath the bitter snows
Lies the seed, that with the sun’s love in the spring becomes the rose.”
I AM the rose.
Trinity Energy Progression Facilitator/Practitioner
Posted by: Angela Coulter | on April 24, 2019
I have been observing myself so closely lately. I am beginning to see patterns emerge that astonish me. I have spent countless hours focusing my intentions to let go of judgment but lately it seems like I have made little to no impact. So after some serious self-judgment of that thought, I began to see just how deep and unconscious our judgment runs.
Babies are born free of judgment. Things just are. Our role as parents, or the adults in the room, is to teach right and wrong so we all can fit into this world. We all know how well that does or doesn’t work. So our conditioning of right and wrong comes early and often. I believe Don Ruiz refers to this process as “domestication.” There is very little room for choice. And we all just have joined the human condition. Talk about joining a collective! Resistance is futile!
This educated judgment dictates our every decision from the moment our eyes open in the morning until they close again to sleep. What do I eat? What do I wear? Alcohol or yoga to deal with stress? How do I spend my money? Everyday is a gauntlet of judgments that move us through the day. And our minds eat this power up. We evaluate our success or failure based on how well our judgments dictated our actions and how others are measuring up to our judgments. In other words, does this action make me look like a good and lovable person in this domesticated world? The mind is large and in charge here – definitely a mind game.
So what would living without the judgment look and feel like? It is what we all are seeking and just don’t realize it yet! It is a life of unconditional love and acceptance of yourself and others. Living in “heartfullness” with the knowing and trusting that the bigger picture is the priority. Each person’s journey is perfect; no judgment is necessary. The heart guides your daily actions based on how you desire your human experience to unfold. The closer you examine and maintain the relationship with your desires, the more fulfilled your days become. It is a true alignment of thoughts, words, and deeds with the heart. This becomes the power of the Spiritual Being allowing a Human experience.
It is the ultimate freedom.
Sarah Sieg Avignone
Trinity Energy Progression Facilitator/Practitioner
Posted by: Angela Coulter | on April 17, 2019
Really, the answer can be both… in a good way!
I can’t quite remember exactly where and when it all started with me, but I remember having fascination with the existence of my consciousness outside of time back about 30 years ago… when I read the book Slaughterhouse Five (by Kurt Vonnegut) for the first time.
I remember that I KNEW that… I KNEW we could do that!
But that was well before I was conscious enough to REALLY understand it, be ready to LIVE it.
Let me get to the practical of this…
There are so, so many of us – en masse – who, in our expansion of consciousness have been feeling a “little crazy” by cultural terms for years now. Have you found yourself thinking or saying things like…
“I KNOW I had this conversation with this individual already…” (but they have no recollection of it)
“I KNOW I had an email/phone call about this exact topic with _______________…” (but there’s no evidence of it anywhere)
Also, there are other seemingly disparate experiences that leave us questioning our sanity in moments…
- Do you more and more feel like time is warped, like sometimes 30 minutes feels like five minutes… and sometimes 30 minutes feels like five hours… sometimes in the same day?
- Do you sometimes lose track of what the day of the week, date, season, year it is?
- Do you lose concept of how far in the past something happened, or when something is to happen in the future?
- Do you lose concept of the space of time, and sometimes feel as if you’ve jumped from one moment at another point in time into this one, without anything in between?
Up until now, we’ve collectively called it “aging,” “going senile,” “being eccentric,” or “losing one’s facilities.”
However, as we continue to expand our consciousness, and remember things from a much wider perspective, we remember that we exist outside of time… and it’s simply a dimension we’ve created (considered by many to be the fourth dimension).
As I understand it, time is fully a construct of our mind/ego to measure things in a linear fashion. A dimension we’ve created and create, and our experience of that dimension is specific to this Earth plane. To look at this simply, consider the different civilizations of which we have record across Earth’s history thus far. Some recorded time by the stars, by the sun, by the seasons, by many different kinds of calendars based on relativity. Another way to consider it is, if you were communicating with a being from another part of the galaxy/Multiverse… do you believe they would have the concept of time as we do?
I’m sure there is similar measurement of sorts in other civilizations of consciousness. Yet, maybe not… maybe it would just be different. After all, it is a construct of measurement! There are many great examples of the consideration of different perceptions of time. Slaughterhouse Five is one of them… the question throughout the book being, is the main character truly “crazy,” or just non-dependent on time? His experience with another race from another part of the Multiverse is that they don’t experience time as linear but simultaneously now… which allows him to expand his consciousness to be able to be in any moment in his life in any moment.
[Movie spoilers ahead] There are many movies with similar themes. In the movie Interstellar, the main character realizes how to see the “fourth dimension” – time – and also to exist in the “fifth dimension,” being aware of all and consciously focusing on remembering how to work with all, to see all the possibilities in every moment, in every direction, an knowing it’s all just one facet of a much larger consciousness. In the movie Arrival, a linguist tasked with communicating with star beings who’ve arrived here from someplace else discovers this race sees time as circular, thus seeing “the entire picture” all at once.
The more we Remember in consciousness, beyond the limitations of the mind, and into the trust of knowing… the less we have partitions that limit our experience of these dimensions the part of our consciousness that has incarnated here, in the body, has traditionally forgotten. Many talk about “getting to the fifth dimension”; however, the key is to remember that we’re already there… it’s just that we’re remembering in a way that’s functional to existing here on Earth differently.
Though I’ve had quite a number of experiences of this – and it’s getting more and more regular for me – there have been quite a number of related experiences with my pets that really anchored in the remembrance.
One of my cats, Cocoa, passed away in 2015. Afterwards, he would take me to different points of his life as if they were now, if he was showing me something to remember about my own journey, in terms of his presence on it. Then, my dog, Montana, who passed away in 2017, showed me the source of her confusion sometimes as she would pop over to her life before this past one, when she was my family’s dog while I was growing up. Both of my current cats, Obi and Minerva, periodically show me their moment of passing in this life as presently as this moment is; the first few times I popped over to that, it shocked me from the surprise of the reality of it. They’ve been helping me to consciously immerse myself in whatever moment free of the confines of time… and realize it’s all just as real as any other.
Along with that sometimes comes confusion in the moment as the mind catches up to the now experience in a way that’s free of context. Where am I? What day is it? Time? Year? It’s not anything around getting older, losing it, or being crazy (which is a relative term, anyway)… it’s the mind/ego still reconfiguring itself to perceive and function just as fluidly independent of the construct of the time dimension as within it… of letting go of the prioritization of tomorrow, now, and yesterday in relativity to be equal, to be concurrently in existence in now.
I’ve set myself to remember all of this… I believe there are many who are doing the same, even if they’re not fully conscious that they’re doing it. It often makes one feel uneasy and sometimes downright scared (“Am I sick? Is there something wrong with me? What’s going on?”); it causes many to feel like there’s “something wrong” with them… jump into judgment and fear right away, when in actuality, if one stays in acceptance and allowance of all possibility as well as observance to what’s going on free of judgment, it’s actually helping us to remember things more completely.
When we allow our consciousness to perceive outside of the construct of time… we much more easily see the bigger picture. This is what happens when we have a vision or visions of something “in the future.” The more we do this… the more we see past, present, future all at one… and the way everything ties together. THIS is “vision work” or “psychic work,” as it’s called.
So, if you’re having these kinds of experiences… stop being so self-deprecating! Ask guidance what’s going on, be open to all possibilities… and own it! Be patient with yourself in allowing. One of the most common discussions I have among my soul tribe is around our detachment from time, and the shift to simply observing it. We laugh in the moments where we might seem discombobulated to others… yet, there’s almost no one I know who doesn’t understand when we open a conversation with, “So, how are YOU doing with being free of the anchors of time? Have you gotten it down yet? It’s still been a little wonky for me…”
And then we compare related experiences – and laugh – because we ARE losing our minds, so we can exist fully in knowing, from higher consciousness… and then we can open the gateways to the incorporation of the Remembrance of our Self from yet more dimensions…
If you’d like some help with this… give me a call (that’s what Trinity Energy Progression is all about)! 😉
Originator, Trinity Energy Progression
Posted by: Angela Coulter | on April 5, 2019
Grief. The word itself just feels heavy and bleak. So, it was no surprise to me when I looked up the definition that its root originates from the Latin word “gravare,” meaning “burden,” which is a derivative of “gravis,” meaning “heavy.” Think of gravity. It keeps us bound to the Earth. It weighs us down. So does grief.
Elisabeth Kubler-Ross defined five stages of grief: Denial, Anger, Bargaining, Depression, Acceptance. While one might move through the stages in random order and even revisit levels, the goal is Acceptance. One thing to point out is that acceptance does not necessarily mean that you are okay with the loss; it means that you recognize the new reality of living in this world without that person or thing you have lost.
At first glance, one might think that grief in a higher state of consciousness is unnecessary. After all, what is there to grieve? Aren’t we all Spirit choosing to have a human/physical experience here on Earth? Energy is neither created or destroyed and the consciousness of a person does not die upon physical death! Further, if one is on the path of spiritual enlightenment, being in a state of grief is a lower energy vibration! Shouldn’t we avoid that? In “Power vs Force,” David R. Hawkins establishes a hierarchy of levels of human consciousness, with Enlightenment the goal. Grief falls below Fear! Think about that. Grief falls below the level that most humans are operating from. Therefore, I have been struggling with how to deal with the very human feelings brought forward through grief, all of which fall in the lower energy vibrations.
Grief has many levels and many faces, and how a person deals with grief is very personal. In the past six months, I have suffered three different losses—my job, my mother, and my beloved cat, Lucas. And each of these losses has produced very different grief responses. We can even talk about the Circle of Life, and how loss is necessary. We can say that my mother is in a better place, and that my cat is no longer suffering. But this hurts like hell. It is clear to me that there are no coincidences and that absolutely everything happens in the way it is supposed to (even if it does not seem that way at first).
There has been the comment that I seem to be grieving more for my cat than I did for my mother. And this brings to me to the other part of grief—judgment. No one really knows the depths of another person’s grief. You cannot always tell from the number of tears shed in public.
When I lost my job, I was sitting in the Anger phase for a few months and then my mother suddenly died. Her death was a shock, but I also knew this was what she wanted. I felt a mixture of sadness and relief, for her and for me. But I kept thinking of the “What Ifs” and “If Onlys”; things could have been, should have been, better. A few days after her burial, I found out that my cat Lucas was suffering from tongue cancer. That brave kitty went through two months of vet visits, force feedings, appetite stimulants, antibiotics, steroids, and pain medications until I finally understood that he was ready to go. That brought me to my knees. You see, Lucas has always been a constant and unending source of pure unconditional love for me. But I realize Lucas gave me another gift upon dying; his death has forced me to deal with the long-buried sorrow related to my mother. I do not grieve that she has left this earthly plane. My grief is sourced at a primal level, the sorrow of a little girl that will never have the nurturing, loving mother she always wanted. I got the angry, sarcastic, “take no prisoners” warrior mother. But this is where I learned to be strong and stand up for myself. I am proud of the gifts that she gave to me, even if the delivery was painful. Losing Lucas opened the gates to reach that deeply buried pain. And while it may be selfish to focus on my grief, I think that is exactly what is required unless I want to be stuck at this level.
I conclude that grief and all the associated emotions, whether they be lower energy vibrations, must be acknowledged and felt in order to move forward. For every “dark night of the soul” that I have lived has resulted in a gift. I remind myself of this daily. There is a light around the corner.
Trinity Energy Progression Practitioner/Facilitator