When did I first know fear?
– Was I afraid of being born into this world while I was still in the womb?
– Was I afraid to be separated when the umbilical cord was cut?
– Did my mother pass along fears she may have had during my birth as a result of her miscarriage before her pregnancy with me?
– Was I afraid of moving from the protective darkness of the womb into the light of the world?
I continue to wonder if fear is innate to the human experience, and if so, if fear is something we need to learn to live with so that it empowers rather than impedes us. Maybe security blankets and night lights are just the beginning of ways we learn to live with it when we are babies. And then what?
Throughout my life, I have experienced the duality of fear:
– Fear of not knowing; fear of knowing
– Fear of being lost and alone; fear of losing myself in others
– Fear of looking at my authentic self in the mirror; fear of not recognizing who I see
– Fear of being too smart; fear of not being smart enough
– Fear of the unknown; fear of the known
– Fear of the dark; fear of the light
– Fear of making the wrong move; being frozen with fear
– Fear of failure; fear of success
– Fear that happiness is temporary; fear that sadness isn’t
– Fear of loving too much; fear of loving too little
– Fear of feeling smothered by love; fear of starving for love
– Fear of being in a relationship where my authentic self isn’t flourishing; fear of being alone
– Fear of knowing myself; fear of not knowing who I am
My journey has enabled me to realize that my fears are based on not fully loving myself unconditionally. Fear may live in our past. But I have realized that in each moment of our present, we have a choice to love ourselves unconditionally, and in doing so, to say no to living in fear.
I am still learning how to:
– Live with fears that arise by observing them and seeing how they could serve and empower me rather than sabotage and impede me.
– Open my heart and let unconditional love and light lift me out of fear
– Transform fear into something I can live with and not in, so that my authentic self can flourish
As I reframe my perspective on fear, I am reframing/transforming acronyms for F.E.A.R. into:
– Forget Everything And Remember
– Face Everything And Rejoice
– Feel Excited And Ready
– Forget Everything And Relax
– Face Everything And Remember
– Fortunately Everything is All Right
– Feel Entirely Absolutely Resourceful
What does F.E.A.R. stand for to you?
Trinity Energy Progression Facilitator/Practitioner