Tag: awakening

 

Bored? Detached? Consciously (Un)Familiar Territory

I am inspired about a conversation we had in a Trinity Energy Progression Practitioner Share the other nigt.  Conversation came up about how we are tired of the game, and that there is a reluctance within us to respond, engage or feel anything toward the 3D stage and all the absurdity that is being played out upon it. It feels that we are left with an apathetic shrug and descend from its drama. In this divergence we desire to be removed from the game all together. Though in this desire of disconnection from the plot and its set, it has severed connectivity to the deeper level of who we are. In here avails an opportunity to mend and grow from. This conversation awakened something similar within myself that I want to explore and understand. The following is my attempt to grasp meaning or understanding. In this place of finding meaning, I will bring tribute to my ego and mind, and give way for it to try to work it this out, before releasing or relinquishing the reigns of control to guidance and a higher or more valid principal of myself. Because of course, my right foot is still more firmly planted in 3D than my other foot is in the unknown.  Hopefully, this next section will loosen that foothold and turn the balance to being brilliantly planted into the unknown.

We in the healing community find ourselves in a strange and unfamiliar place.  In fact, we are so much in the place that we are, it is hard to look at it from another perspective. What am I talking about, you ask. This may resonate with you in some way. I hear from others in our circle, as well as experience and feel myself, the lackluster of this 3D being version of self. There is a veil that has been lifted that has taken away my innocence. The realization that there is no “Santa Claus” or that Barbie and Ken are only dolls or that this “reality” is nowhere in proximity of the truth to being real is creeping into my consciousness. Sure, I have “known” this for some time. But just like when I was 7, I knew that playing house may not be exactly the same as being a grown up. Though when that transition took place, it was so much more radical and different than I could comprehensively fathom. So here now, I find myself on the fence between two worlds. One foot is the drama-rich place of life and believing it is real, and the other foot is grazing the surface of the unknown. This is a frustrating place to be.  A lot of trauma and drama is surfacing as I face this. How are you responding to it? I know I am not dealing so well. I am cocooning into a void much like an emotionally unavailable teenager retreating into their bedroom to avoid both the world they came from and the world they are expected to grow into. So yes, I am sulking, maybe many of us are. Though we are a bit more awake than the teenager, in that we can see that something is up. We could say in teenage vernacular that “life sucks” and “why me,” BUT we know that is not true. We are NOT alone and this not a self-centered me thing, but an US predicament.  I believe we hear the phrase “Toto, I’ve a feeling we’re not in Kansas anymore!”

Yes, I understand, that this “hormonal”-like rush is taking place and that we are being positioned and made ready for the next stage. But here on this rolling scale (depending on the day and the hour), is a rage, an impatience, or an unimpressed vesicle who at the end of the day is just more and more blasé to it all. And friends, this is where I judge myself and say something just isn’t right about the loss of that loving feeling. This is where it resembles the antithesis of a what it may mean to be an energy healer.  So, while being on the verge of an existential crisis, I’d like to step away from that ledge all together.  And here is where I remember (or remind myself to remember to remember) that this is what happens when we give reign to the ego.  That part who loves to hate the drama and hates to love the action of being hooked into this wild ride of unreason.

In taking a look at all this drama and coming to the realization that it is time to let go, it is also time to let go of the belief that there is futility in the act of letting go. And ok, I’ll say it, it is time for allowing the big shift to occur, the big step to take place, and the ultimate “get into our big girl/boy pants” moment is now.  It is time to give our ego a big hug and huge expression of gratitude and thanks to all that it has done. But we acknowledge that its reign is over and we are attending the coronation where the so-called crown is to be placed upon our higher self, our connected self ,our all loving and trusting and knowing self.  This is a new time and place where time is timeless and place is placeless.  This is for our best, where we are truly free to be our most ultimate expression.

Thanks for the metaphorical journey (kool-aidless of course :-))!  I love all of your bright lights.  Eager to join you through this evolution and on our next level of being.

Namaste,

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Dee Jones
Trinity Energy Progression Facilitator/Practitioner

To Each… Their Own Journey

My awakening started 3 years ago. However, when I say those words, I know that this has been coming for many, many years before that pivotal moment 3 years ago.

It was more than just a realization for me. It was a deep pull inward that kept calling me to pay attention to it. My dreams were filled with faces, and words, and vivid ethereal landscapes and colors so bright I could not define them as any colors I have seen here in the 3D. Something in me had changed, and I could not describe it to anyone. I felt alone.  Then came Ezekiel. A strong and gentle guide. He kept prodding me forward. Kept saying his name to me. Ezekiel guided me and I eventually listened. At first, I was impatient with him. I realize now that it wasn’t until I let go and allowed him to really guide me that this is when I started to really listen and pay attention.  He guided me to Angela’s web site.  For many of us it is a deep pull like what I experienced, for some it manifests as an illness, or trauma of some kind that pulls at  the soul until you can no longer deny it. It is my understanding that each soul having their own journey, experiences their awakening in their own unique way. Each soul having their own pathway to remember. Each soul unique in their own expression of their experience.

My soul felt a shift to find my soul family. To find my path. To learn as much as I could because I yearned for it. I have yearned for something greater and more expansive since I was knee high, maybe smaller. I could at a very young age feel things and see things I understood others around me could not. The transitioning of a butterfly from our world to the next, I could feel its last breath. The watchers, the tall dark shadow people or spirits. They came and stood over me or near me. They would talk to me during dream state and in waking state. I shut it all down for a while, protecting myself until I was ready to explore this side of me.

The information came slowly at first; I was being guided by many now. Their names do not matter. Little waves of dots connecting a fine path that lead me here… To this moment. To this day. I have experienced many moments, some small, some big yet always guiding me and connecting me in some way to another doorway that eventually leads to another doorway and then another. Funny thing is that the learning I yearned for and how I understand it to be now is really known to me now as remembering who I am. Remembering the depth of myself, my worth, my soul path. The soul family that I have been reunited with here and in other avenues have given me so many gifts, many moments of remembering on so many levels. One such moment happened while on retreat on Orcas Island with the Trinity family.

I was guided to go, knowing that this would be an expansive moment for the group, for the collective and yes for me as well. I was not prepared for what came forward. It presented itself at first in a way that overwhelmed me physically and emotionally. I panicked. This was a moment during group meditation. I was surrounded by my soul family and in the midst of my panic attack which was a 3D moment, I looked towards Angela and connected in and there she was, there they all were supporting me forward.

During this meditation I saw a large being. He had a strong masculine presence and he shared with me, that there was another being coming soon. He asked me if I was open to this moment and to this being and I acknowledged that I was. The being had his back to me. I could not see his face but he was rather tall with really wide shoulders. He was bald. Sort of reminded me of Mr. Clean but on a much grander level. 🙂

His presence resonated as “I am the protector.”

I shared this with the group and moved on with our day together.

Nicole and I shared a room during the retreat. The last night of our retreat, after we had all settled in for the night, Nicole was meditating I went into my own space again. A space I enjoy going into every night and morning, meditative and beautiful. In that moment  I felt a strong shift in the room, nothing like I have ever felt before! I looked up and around. Lifted my head to get a better view and there they were. Flowing in waves through the walls towards me. From each side on every angle they were coming and as they came, or as I understand now, as the energy came it melded through me and then into my core. The energy electric as it held me in an immobile state for 20 minutes or more… with every wave, the electric pulse surged through me. With every surge, the pulse became stronger. It never hurt me. It only held me immobile until the clearing subsided. I could see the energy coming in from the forest outside of the house we were in and into the room and then into me. As the energy pulses came I could barely get out a few sentences. When I could I spoke to Nicole and described what I was feeling. She helped me through the moment, as the energies were intense and my body felt as if it were being gently electrocuted. I was surrounded in a loving embrace. His name…Metatron. The next day, as I woke from a blissful sleep, I was not the same. I had been given a gift. That gift did not truly reveal itself until my birthday several months later. I now call that gift “The Crackle.” It comes to me as an electric surge, powerful and filled with love. It helps me acknowledge what is true for me to understand and if concentrated on another soul or myself, it helps me heal them or myself.

I share this with you all now, because I understand this to be a gift given to me… yet it is something I have always had from many lifetimes past. This is my journey and I share my understanding and guidance with you knowing that your journey is so uniquely different and filled with your own pathways leading you to your own awakening and gifts, however it manifests to you. Namaste family. I love you all dearly!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Sevi Costaras
Trinity Energy Progression Facilitator/Practitioner

 

The Universe Has Our Back: We Are Constantly Being Held…

supportedroadThere have been major shifts that have been occurring that have pushed all of us on the path that we are supposed to be travelling. I know that for myself, I’ve been dragging my feet for some time. I had been standing still for so long that I didn’t know how to take a step forward.  I was terrified to stay in the space I was in, and at the same time terrified of where I was to go.

However, this past summer, all that changed. I experienced the life I so desire and I couldn’t stand still anymore. I know the steps that must be taken in order to live the way I dream… and they aren’t simple. Well, that’s not true. In a way, they are. They’re simple because what they will reveal is my Truth. I’ve been so afraid of accepting this and ashamed of what others would think that I have hidden it for way too long. I have lived a half-life, and I now know that I am worthy of so much more! I will no longer be what someone else wants me to be. I will no longer be something that would make me acceptable to others. I must be exactly who I was created to be… and that has come through so loudly that I can no longer ignore the signs.

This brings me to the title of this entry, for throughout the whole process, I’ve had to overcome enormous amounts of fear and self-doubts. When I thought that I couldn’t possibly dredge up anymore unworthiness, self-doubt, fear, anger, sadness, and loneliness, more would surface. When I felt like I was so alone that I wouldn’t make it through, the Universe was holding me. It was holding me in so many ways and I was oblivious. It hasn’t been until literally within the past few weeks that I’ve received such clarity! A few weeks ago was one of those times where I felt like I was dying, and what happened blew me away. Many of the amazing people that I’m lucky to have in my life stepped forward at exactly the moment I needed them. There is no way I could’ve even thought it out so perfectly. I was so humbled by it and it brought me to my knees. I then started to see how I have been held for so long and I had been blind to it the whole time. Even when circumstances are not what we like, we are being held because it is pushing us to our Truth. Now, I can see the love in every little thing. I see it when the perfect person reaches out to me at just the right moment. When I hear the perfect song plays on the radio. When I’m driving by and the sun is shining at just the right angle. I see it when I receive and listen to the perfect guidance – I’ve been getting better at that one! What a gift!  I see it when I know that I am at the perfect job at this moment, for it is providing exactly what I need. I feel it when the perfect bite of food nourishes me. I see it when a stranger gives me a smile. I see it when I sit with myself and am amazed at who I am finally revealing myself to be. The Universe has our back at every moment of every day… from the most minute ways to the ones that blow our minds. I have no words to express how grateful and humbled I am by this love. All I can say over and over again is, “Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!”

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Cathy Guido
Trinity Energy Progression Facilitator/Practitioner

My Pet Peeves

PetPeevesI am a dog person and have loved having dogs as pets since I was a child. They are always ready and waiting with wagging tails to be petted. I used to have a lot of peeves as pets, too, that were also always ready and waiting for me to pet them — anywhere, anytime! And they were an ever growing pack of peeves. I remember often saying: “That is one of my pet peeves.”


My peeves were there for me to pet in the car while I was driving. For example:

  • Tailgaters when you’re going faster than the speed limit, or those really slow drivers in the fast lane;
  • Turn signals on the car in front of you staying on FOREVER (or drivers who don’t use a turn signal at all);
  • Litterers who throw trash from their car window as they drive.


My peeves were with me when I went to the movies and restaurants and shopping:

  • Squashed cigarette butts outside of entry doors into a building (because no smoking allowed inside??);
  • Parents bringing their pre-schoolers to R-rated movies (because they are too young to understand??);
  • People repeatedly hitting the elevator button (to make the elevator arrive sooner??);
  • Making a sucking noise with a straw to get that very last drop (or all those drops after the very last drop??);
  • Drivers parking their cars across 2 parking spaces (for those needing more personal space for their beloved vehicle??);
  • Wobbly tables at restaurants (to keep you moving until you leave??);
  • Movie talkers, or super noisy eaters during a movie (food, friends, entertainment – what a great socializing opportunity??).

 

Of course, they lived with me at home, too:

  • Coming home to a house smelling like trash that should have been taken out yesterday;
  • A topless toothpaste tube now full of dried toothpaste;
  • No extra roll of toilet paper in the bathroom;
  • An empty carton in the refrigerator…

I’ll stop this particular list now as I do live by myself 🙂
As Trinity Energy Progression became more and more a part of my life, I began to ask myself what was I willing or able to do to actually stop these pesky peeves from being my constant companions. I could never see myself actually hurling an angry admonition into a movie theater audience for someone a few rows away to eat more quietly or to stop their endless talking. But that is exactly what I was doing in my head as I succumbed to the peeves’ demands to be petted without it having any effect on actually stopping their unwanted behavior.

Peeve petting was an instantaneous way to annoy myself without really trying by just looking around me. I rarely missed an opportunity to pick up stray peeves. There were so many of them that were just begging to be petted, ALL the time! Through my Trinity practice, I began to explore why I would ever want to annoy myself with this and why I continued to pick up even more peeves to pet. I realized how petting peeves could obsess me to the extent that they would become a primary focus and distraction, with me often sharing my thoughts about the annoying peeve with whomever was within earshot. I see the peeves as my ego’s pets; my ego loves this “petting.” My ego also loves “peeving” contests where “my peeve is better than yours” or having more peeves than someone else, as well as the superiority my ego feels by only petting the peeve rather than being the peeve.

Now, when I see a peeve looming in front of me or when someone comments that something is a pet peeve of theirs, my head fills with laughter at the thought of a peeve as my pet nipping at my heels and barking incessantly to get my attention so I will pet it. With the focus of Trinity Energy Progression on unconditional love and joy, I couldn’t help but see how my dogs as pets have always been “adorable bundles” (in various sizes) of unconditional love and joy. Although peeves come in many shapes and sizes as well, I see them all as rather “unadorable bundles” of judgment and negativity. I see petting them as expressions of this negativity and judgment by me as the peeve petter.

These days, I laugh at myself at even the idea of choosing to be a peeve petter instead of enjoying petting my unconditionally loving tail-wagging dog. Trinity Energy Progression has helped me remember to choose this simple joy instead of petting peeves. With a smile on my face, I am now going to pet my dog!

SNewton

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Sandi Newton
Trinity Energy Progression Facilitator/Practitioner

This Blog is SO Five Minutes Ago!

TimeLots of people have felt this: Something happens, particularly emotional, and an hour later, it can feel like two hours ago. After becoming a Trinity Energy Progression™ Practitioner (Jan ’14), and then a Facilitator (July ’15), I noticed this phenomenon start to happen regularly; an hour ago could feel either like five minutes or a day ago. Lots of practitioners and facilitators I know have spoken about this and we all laugh about it. What I hear is that it’s timelines collapsing into one. I can’t say I fully grasp that, but I’ve heard it so much that I just accept it and live my life…or lives…which are all happening now…not in the past…or the future…despite that it really feels like time moves forward, I’m told it doesn’t…it’s all now…did you miss it? Here it is again…did you miss it? Here it is again…do you understand now? No? Don’t ask me…I just live here.

There is a rotating schedule for writing these blogs. I was happy with my previous ones. For the first one, a topic came to me while I was walking. Great. For this one I typed a title that I was feeling last week. It felt good, but I didn’t write anything at the time. I put it on my desktop so I’d see it and remember I had a blog to write. When I looked at that title, I felt, ‘That was last week. I’m not feeling that now.’ The thing is, I’m sitting here writing this all at once and by the end it may feel like…meh.

It can be difficult if every five minutes you are someone new! This is a good thing; you are constantly changing and shedding yourself. That’s a great example of being in the flow, which is one of the best lessons shown to me by Trinity. But it can be a pebble in your shoe when your trying to find a name for your Website or business and you keep changing every five minutes.

While this can be frustrating (if you are someone who allows that type of thing), what it’s really showing is how awesome life is and, especially, how much we have grown. If we don’t react to and accept when things like this happen, that is a sure sign you are doing very well, Young Padawan! You are the proverbial duck allowing water to roll off of its back. It is constant checking of yourself; ‘You did well in this moment…now how about this one?’ Constant, it never ends, just like you. You never end, so why would this? It’s constant inward awareness, which is what all of this is really about. And yet, that awareness from five minutes ago can seem like an hour ago, which can seem like a week ago to infinity…plus one.

I see this particular blog as more fun than a topic that I am bothered by at this moment (or this one). This doesn’t really bother me a lot. The reason for writing it at this point did come from someone saying about how limiting the word healing is to them now because it implies the past and we have moved past that. I didn’t have any doubt about my Website name (TSHealing) one second before that sentence. But when it was said, I could feel it. That made me want to look for a new name. But when I really check in if this is something I want to change, at this moment, the answer is yes, but it’s not too pressing although I am now getting myself out there more than I ever have so this is something I want to change. It’s just that when I chose the name, it was over a year ago. I’m not that person anymore. But if I chose a name now, I won’t be that person anymore either probably by the time I finish typing this sentence…now…period.

What I can remind myself is the Website is not for me, it’s for everyone else. And while I do want it to feel reflective of who I am, who I am doesn’t sit still long enough for GoDaddy to take the money out of my checking account when I buy a new domain name that I no longer feel represents me. What does that bring us to? No words. We are heading towards not using words anymore because we can feel the limitations of them. It doesn’t make them a bad thing, it just…how do I put this… … …

So here we are in what feels like the end of this blog. It started taking about how time no longer feels like what it used to and now is about words no longer being enough to relay the energy we now feel and are. I will say that I do not feel ‘meh’ here at the end of it. I actually feel very good because I didn’t know where this river was going when I started! I just allowed it to flow. While I can feel that I’ve let something go, I can also feel closer to something even five minutes later. This blog is both. I feel closer to my own divinity by just jumping in and allowing it to take me wherever it will.

However, one thing you will never hear said is, ‘That love is so five minutes ago’…

DParent

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

David Parent
Trinity Energy Progression Facilitator/Practitioner