There has been much discussion of transcending the increasingly frenetic 3D, healing ourselves and the world, resolving the stories of this existence, etc. Recently, in the ethers, I got beyond all of these experiences to a level of pure BEing. I perceived my blissful opalescent Soul/Source Energy surrounded by soft clouds. This vision made me think of a poem I’d written at the time of my father’s passing.
The clouds stretch out
Shades of pale pink, yellow, and blue
Dust the surface of fluffy white,
Sunrise on the rest of your life.
A few unfinished details
Into the dazzling light.
No more struggles,
Futility and injustice.
Finally time to let go.
The false overlays now lifted,
Like veils of untruth,
Reveal what has always been
The overshadowed reality
At the core,
At last, set free to soar
Among the clouds.
Later that afternoon, I recognized the same opalescent colors and cloud-like imagery in my son’s ten-year-old watercolor painting. I’m continually “reminded” that awakening is a process of remembering what we already know at a deeper level. I consider these coincidences to be echoes of the soul, confirming an underlying truth we’re just now connecting to the larger reality.
The concept of the soul’s inherent, eternal magnificence waiting to BE re-embraced feels particularly timely. It’s comforting to understand the chaos around us as simply completing “a few unfinished details.” We can hold these low vibrational external situations in the Energy of BEing. In the midst of what may feel like increasingly dark hours, we can connect to this level of BEing, create the reality we choose, and soar in our own dazzling light.
I have to admit, I feel up against a wall. I have been rushing toward opening up and allowing myself to feel free flowing happiness, love, laughter, content, joy, bliss, sheer BEingness and then…WOMP. I found myself pressed against the wall. All those wondrous feelings, states of being, mind satisfying vibrations seem to be on the other side of the wall. I know they are all there. I feel so close…a breath, a hair, an instant away, but this darn block is preventing me from melting, joining, receiving, transforming to it.
I do not feel disappointed that it is not so. I feel confused. I look upon it as a dog cocking its head in puzzled confusion. I am engaged with this mystery in a sense of loving wonderment. I sense a strangeness or a weirdness as to why this is so. It feels like typing a password into the computer and nothing happens. So we type it in again expecting it allow us entrance, and then nope, nothing. Nothing changed. It may have been awhile since last tapping in. Is it possible we forgot? No, we wrote it down. Questions surface, did I change it? Did it expire? Is something wrong? I know I know this. What is going on? And there it is. It is the questioning of what is really going on and why is this so. The thinking part of the mind so at grip to this.
The softer side, emerges and says let it go, let it just be. Remove the force of the thought against it. Lay back and drift with it. Let go and allow it to just become one with us.
This translates to me as taking a step away and allowing it to come from the peripheral. I have been focusing too hard on the need, the desire, and willfulness to make it so. So it is time to step away from the wall for a moment to allow the necessary space. I allow the natural connection with the other side and to become one with it. That feels right. That feels so.
Meditation and energy work is such an important part of my day, my life and experience. It works so delicately and without confines. It reminds me that I do not have to direct or do anything in the how to make it so. Remembering and practicing this is all I need do. All is well with this.
Namaste, happiness and joy to all,
Over the past several weeks or maybe months, I, along with many others, have aligned with the intentions to release several major partitions within myself.
First, I focused on my feelings of responsibility for those close to me, including their healing and spiritual paths. I released those feelings of responsibility and obligation, allowing them to be responsible for their own journey. On the heels of that clearing came the need to release my judgments of everything, including those around me on their spiritual path and journey.
Next came my acceptance of the shadow side of the light and the role I played in unleashing this shadow side into this version of duality. That caused a revisit to the release of judgment again; but this time of myself! Somewhere in here came the release of all the stories I carried. I understood I could not continue to carry these stories and align with the Divine within me.
Now this latest one is the real deal. Releasing the original split of myself. Going all the way, as high as it goes, to release this huge partition. Initially, I felt such a relief. I understood how we were doing everything differently this time. It felt so freeing. I no longer felt defined by anything. No stories to remember, no history to atone for, no roles to limit my behavior. What’s not to love about that?!
Then it hit me…without all of the responsibility, stories, guilt, judgment, and roles, who am I now? What is left? I feel like my mind/ego successfully maintained a rigid maze that I was allowed to explore and occupy and even expand as needed. My light could fill and even overflow this maze without any issue. It was Me. I mindfully managed Me.
My maze is now gone! My light has no impediments, no limits. I no longer am able to be mindful of Me! In order to fully embrace this latest clearing, I must be “heartful” not mindful of everything. There is no need for definitions, limitations, or distractions. There is no hole to fill. I am the divine Being of light. The Universe. All of it. So, to answer the question above, who I Am? “I Am”!
Facilitator, Trinity Energy Progression