Tag: dee jones
I have to admit, I feel up against a wall. I have been rushing toward opening up and allowing myself to feel free flowing happiness, love, laughter, content, joy, bliss, sheer BEingness and then…WOMP. I found myself pressed against the wall. All those wondrous feelings, states of being, mind satisfying vibrations seem to be on the other side of the wall. I know they are all there. I feel so close…a breath, a hair, an instant away, but this darn block is preventing me from melting, joining, receiving, transforming to it.
I do not feel disappointed that it is not so. I feel confused. I look upon it as a dog cocking its head in puzzled confusion. I am engaged with this mystery in a sense of loving wonderment. I sense a strangeness or a weirdness as to why this is so. It feels like typing a password into the computer and nothing happens. So we type it in again expecting it allow us entrance, and then nope, nothing. Nothing changed. It may have been awhile since last tapping in. Is it possible we forgot? No, we wrote it down. Questions surface, did I change it? Did it expire? Is something wrong? I know I know this. What is going on? And there it is. It is the questioning of what is really going on and why is this so. The thinking part of the mind so at grip to this.
The softer side, emerges and says let it go, let it just be. Remove the force of the thought against it. Lay back and drift with it. Let go and allow it to just become one with us.
This translates to me as taking a step away and allowing it to come from the peripheral. I have been focusing too hard on the need, the desire, and willfulness to make it so. So it is time to step away from the wall for a moment to allow the necessary space. I allow the natural connection with the other side and to become one with it. That feels right. That feels so.
Meditation and energy work is such an important part of my day, my life and experience. It works so delicately and without confines. It reminds me that I do not have to direct or do anything in the how to make it so. Remembering and practicing this is all I need do. All is well with this.
Namaste, happiness and joy to all,
I received guidance that I should go to the gym for inspiration. Seemed like sound advice and echoed as such. I started my work out on the elliptical glider where I tethered my ears to my phone for a joyful Pandora experience and began gliding along.
I happened to glance up at one of the twelve talking screens to spy the phrase “tweaking plan to fight Isis”. Upon seeing this phrase at the bottom of the screen, my first reaction was to laugh. It tickled me so funny. After I got over my responsive funny and delightful response of “yes, yes the part of the plan that suggests fighting is ready for some major tweaking”; it occurred to me that that may not be the emotional response that CNN was eliciting.
Luckily my exercise high was not going to let me go ponder the darker side of that, but to shed some interesting new light to it instead. This new light that sparkled or glimmered at the peripheries of the screen was a call to action. Whether CNN knows it or not, it just sent out word to all of us energy workers to tweak this plan. We have our wings and powerful connection to the light and the truth. We got this! And we can and we do and we have tweaked the plan. That feels good.
Let’s stay with that for a moment …………………………. and connect to an inspiring love tweak where we all as individuals or groups are heard and our perspectives and views of the world can be honored in peace.
The bigger piece of this experience that I share is a reminder to me and whoever else is to remember that we always have a choice about how we experience or view things, people, or events. We often let the popularly-learned fear-based emotions be the first responders to guide us about how to be with the world. It is time to exercise a stronger love-powered emotion to replace those old emotional muscles. Those old patterns do not serve us and they may even keep the news alive, but we are in a new business not the news business.
This is about being in the “now” where there is no news; as the wise ones say, no news is good news ;-).
To Trinity and beyond…….
Namaste and much love,
Facilitator, Trinity Energy Progression™
Fasting, releasing, letting go, removing blocks which prevent our light to shine, removing masks and discarding our shadow lives and being in full bloom to show up as authentic self. If I were unafraid, I would let go of all my masks, all props, costumes, scripts, all ego created beliefs and BE.
I am pondering why I have created such a tight grip to holding onto the show. Even though I know that letting go leads to something a whole lot better than my ego can imagine, I still resist and I hold back. I am watching this tennis match between my ego and a wall. Watching and believing that my ego can champion over a wall. A wall which only is the reflective action the ego imposes upon it. Yet even knowing that this is not real, I am holding onto it as if it is. There is still so much resistance upon letting go.
I want so much to remember, remember my true authentic being. My prayers, meditations, readings, writings, healings, and thoughts all focus on this. I remind myself daily or more often than that to “wake up” … to “remember” … to “let go and trust” … and to “be in faith”. Some moments, many moments, my patience turns and annoyance and aggravation become me and questions of doubt and uncertainty pour out. The questions spill, “why can’t I just wake up, why is this taking so long, what the heck” and so on and so forth. Then snap, my mind pivots and I attend to “it is time to refocus, time to heal, time to sit with that and reveal what the hold up within myself is.”
An answer bubbles up to the surface and shows that I am in grief and misery and terribly miss knowing that I will forget all this. When I wake up and step into my truth and being that I am, I will have no memory at all of this dream world of this enchanted, exotic, wild, exciting, ego trip that I have been experiencing since the apple was eaten and this hallucination begun. That I hold onto. I hold onto wanting to remember this and that. Something tells me that both cannot be remembered. It feels like something of the flavor of “we cannot serve two masters.” I am torn, as I know it is time to step into the fullness and all that I am, but darn it all I do not want to forget this wild story. My sentimentality and love for this imagined creation is still strongly entrenched in my being. I am hitting the snooze bar for 5 more minutes, I am enjoying this dream.
Along comes the siren with a lullaby and it sweetly sings that it does not have to be all or none, not right away. This is a finely tuned web of beliefs after all; and here negotiating, the ego is at work and says, “you know you can have your cake and eat it too.” But of course we can stall. We can take an evolutionary step and yet still be present with this 3D dream. The drum rolls, and the reveal is that we can BE AWAKE within the dream. Interesting, this is a precarious position for the ego. I am surprised it is willing to take a step in this presence. For the ego, this is like standing on the ledge of a cliff and all of a sudden the other side of the earth falls away leaving the ego balancing itself on a pinnacle of land for support without much leeway or wiggle room for roaming or moving about. It looks bleak for the ego now with nowhere left to go. It is reduced to its final frontier and left to dissolve into I…..
I am afraid to let my imaginary friend go is what it boils to, and in irony it is my imaginary friend who is afraid to be imagined, to be let go, as my imagined sense is making this so. It is confusing to be insane. It is now time to let go of the insanity within. Know now it is time to turn within and connect to source and release and heal and receive the Truth of that in which we are.
Peace and Love to all. See ya on the other side where though there is no word for it, I believe it points way beyond awesomenesssss!
Facilitator, Trinity Energy Progression™