Tag: freaky flag
Posted by: Angela Coulter | on March 28, 2018
I often notice energy themes that are present in my sessions that come up to be addressed or resolved. For instance, a theme could be many people experiencing an issue such as feeling stuck in their jobs or relationships. The theme that has been showing up for several years and is amplified right now is about becoming and allowing your true, authentic, powerful self to emerge. This is the version of you that you may call your higher self, or spirit self. It’s the part of you that is full of infinite wisdom and love and knows itself as eternal. It is everything your thinking mind, or your ego mind is not.
Our ego has been designed to perceive this world through a very limited lens, primarily one of fear and feeling separation from our higher self, source energy (God) and others. Our true self, which exists in Oneness, knows no limitation or separation. True you vibrates in love and therefore, you vibrate and exist in only love, but we all forgot that this is true and often are very far from being in love with ourselves! What I do to open up this part of me, is connect inward everyday to get a taste of that love and bliss that is always available for me. This isn’t a mental connection, it is a connection through BEing and existing in the present moment.
So back to expressing the “power of you” theme. We are in a space where we are being called to step into our true selves in a bigger and more authentic way. All that stuff that we hold within us that is of fear, lack, unworthiness, limitation, powerlessness is coming up to be resolved, so we can hold more of our true light. This is a frequency thing were these lower vibrational emotions hold us down, but as we love and release them, our higher vibrational self can emerge.
I was talking with a good friend about this today and of course she has been experiencing some of this too! See, the theme is loud as it presents itself! We were discussing how scary it is to show our whole self to others. The light and the dark parts! Often, we hide the parts of ourselves that we judge as bad or wrong, and only show our “good” face to the world. The face that we want people to see and the face that we think will get approval and love. At the end of the day, we are all just seeking love and we think that if don’t act or be a certain way, we won’t get it, which is the scariest thing in the world! So, we judge and hide the version of us that won’t rock the boat or potentially anger someone. We can be so afraid of what people think about us, that we often will bend who we are to please them.
When you’re only showing the world one part of you that you think they want to see or hear, you’re actually not bringing in the people or experiences that are a match for you, because you’re hiding the whole of you. Energy attracts like energy and people attract like people, so if you’re holding back on being YOU as the whole true you, you’re missing out on some really good stuff! Relationships that are a close match and experiences that are more in resonance with what your really want.
I had another experience lately where I was meditating with some friends in a Native American nature reserve and we were playing crystal bowls and drums while shifting some energy. We began our practice while no one was around even though we knew there were other people in the park. After while, we were really flowing with energy and here I am, beating this drum (I’ve always had some aversion to drums, so I was doing it to get over it!)… so of course, some people walked towards us and I opened my eyes upon hearing the crunch of their footsteps. I immediately got embarrassed and wondered what they were thinking. Another part of me asked myself, “Who cares?” A deeper part of me said, “I do… What if they judge me and think terrible thoughts about me? Who’s that white girl banging on a drum like she’s a native American? Who does she think she is letting her freak flag fly? She doesn’t even like drums anyway!” (Although I really was getting into it!)
I then got a message from my higher self, saying that I would be putting myself out there in much more bigger ways than this. If I am to show up as the bright, shiny true version of me, I would have to get comfortable with getting uncomfortable (at first). Sooooo, I’ve been feeling into other ways I’ve been holding myself back and I have a feeling more of me will be coming out to play soon!
So…Are you ready to ‘fly your freak flag” so you get to be more of you? In doing so, more of your gifts get to surface and you get the shine the brightest! What is holding you back? Let’s do this!
Trinity Energy Progression Facilitator/Practitioner