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Posted by: Colleen Kendrick | on November 12, 2018
A friend recently challenged me to do 30 days of Facebook Live videos to embrace my intense fear of talking live on camera. I have often watched so many others make it look so very easy with their confidence and perfect flow and I thought, I wish I could actually do that! However, once I started to think about it, I was overcome with so much fear and doubt that I would quickly shut it down and tell myself, no way you’ll ever do that! That damn snarky voice in my head; sometimes, I just want to give it a good ole punch and knock it out! So with this challenge, I quickly accepted it before I could freak and react to what I had just agreed to do. My friend who challenged me offered to do a test run of us together on Facebook Live to show me the way. I was extremely nervous and felt completely shut down – well I may have shown up for about 20 seconds, but hey – it’s a start!
I had decided if I was going to do this live challenge that I wanted to do my best to give a positive message….so it began. It’s interesting because as an empath I felt like I could feel everyone’s judgments and I could hear some of the chatter going on around me. Although most people never actually had the courage to confront me in person, that’s okay because what I learned from it was that those judgments were about them and not me. I had my own lessons to learn from this amazing experience which I’ll come back to in a moment.
Some of you know that I love taking photos and will often jump in smiling at the sight of any camera but that’s not the case when it comes to live video. Somewhere my mind and I had created Facebook Live to be this huge mountain of fear so I would now have a large mountain to climb! While I never fully lost my fear from doing live videos for 30 days, they got a little easier. The mountain wasn’t quite as big as I had created in my mind.
Striving to be authentic with my daily message, I asked for divine guidance to lead me and come through me while letting go of any fear or attachment. However, sometimes I was clueless about my daily ramble and I could feel fear rising, so I simply sent it love. It was all crazy and perfect as I discovered many new tribe members with this experience and may have lost a few folks who just didn’t quite understand. Also my belief and trust in myself grew, because I said, “Yes I Can” do this and came from a place of love, allowing love to win over fear.
I’ve always felt that a simple smile to a stranger could potentially change that person whether for a moment, a day or a lifetime. Therefore, I thought if I delivered a positive message with a smile thrown in, heck maybe I’ll reach more than one soul who needs a little lift! I discovered that it actually helped many and brightened their days. So many lovely people reached out to me with support, encouragement, gratitude and requests to keep going because they needed me. Wow! What an amazing feeling of love and how humbling to truly know that I had made an impact by just being me and doing this silly little challenge!
I am grateful for all the love and support from family and friends and to the Universe for always having my back. I offer even more gratitude to all the judgment and chatter that came from those who didn’t quite understand as they taught me the most about myself! All in all, this 30 day challenge taught me more than I can ever write in this blog. Here are a few of my favorite lessons: I completed all 30 days! I showed up and did my best. I can truly laugh at myself. I survived. I thrived. I shined. I now choose to freely Embrace Me! No turning back now, as I am forever changed due to this experience! So, I now wonder, what’s next? Shout out of many thanks to my friend Brittany for challenging me! Love to you all!
Trinity Energy Progression Instructor/Practitioner