Tag: self

 

Navigating This Shift… to ME

We have definitely shifted into a different space. The trip I took to Mt. Shasta in September was so powerful that I haven’t been able to fully return into my former home reality. I no longer feel like there is a specific place that I can call home. I keep longing for something that I can’t put my finger on.  I have this feeling I should move, but every time I think I’ve found a place that would be good, it doesn’t feel right and the search begins again.  There doesn’t seem to be a place that captures what I’m feeling inside.

In addition, I’ve been faced with issues that I thought I had worked out. Feelings of victimization, self-loathing, abandonment, loneliness, judgment, not being heard, fear of confrontation, feelings of self- sacrifice, self-judgment, feelings of worthlessness. Heavy stuff, things that I didn’t realize were still profoundly affecting me. I mean, how much of this do I have inside? It feels insurmountable at times. I have been brought to my knees AGAIN.  Almost every relationship showing me things  to shift, but yet are so challenging to face. The relationship with my parents and siblings is at the moment the one that has been mirroring issues for me the most. I knew that I had been changed forever when in Shasta but I had underestimated how much. I really thought that I could come home, take a couple of weeks to re-acclimate and go back to my routine life. But that isn’t the case! There is no such thing as “going back to routine.” That time has passed, and I am writing this so that all who read this can find comfort in the fact that so many of us are currently feeling the same way. Everyone I’ve spoken with has a similar story. We are all being pushed so hard to step into our full Divinity, our Truth. So many mirrors being put up so that we don’t stop moving forward. The Universe is no longer waiting around! It’s been doing this for some time, I know, but I feel we’ve gone into warp speed over the last couple of months. When I can finally get my head above water, out of all those feelings of separation, I can see all of it from a higher perspective. In those moments of clarity… my goodness, how beautiful and perfect it all is!

It’s only when I get out of mind and sit in the vibration of Love, the vibration that is ME, that I get the clarity. That’s when I get the peace. Although, I have to say, those times have been few and far between. There are many days, moments within the day that I have to constantly remind myself to allow and flow, and man, that has been really hard to do! Ego is holding on with a death grip! It’s been a challenging time fighting it. The thought of just going back to the way I was would be so much easier… but that isn’t an option, because the feelings of being stagnant are even more terrifying than the self work, which I know will end in something wonderful.

The perfection is that all of the things that I am being shown are exactly what’s standing in my way of true self-love, and it is only through this that we will be able to do what we came here to do. It’s only when we get through every last thing that gets in the way of loving ourselves completely as the perfect Divine beings we are, that we’ll be able to go forward without fear or doubt or anything and be exactly what we were created to be, pure Love. Love that knows no boundaries. Love that encompasses all. Love that is our Oneness. Love that needs no words, or thoughts, or physicality. Love that will just Be, Be the Divine that we already are but we can’t yet see because of all the blinders we’ve put up. They are falling away. This is what we are all being pushed to realize. Because there is no work to do really; that’s just an illusion. Everything we are being shown for us to shift are just messages to ourselves, reminders, the bread crumbs we have left so we can find our way back.  All of it so we can remember WE ARE already all of it. We are the Divine. We are Perfect. We are ALL.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Cathy Guido
Trinity Energy Progression Practitioner/Facilitator

Remembering What We Already Know

Aurora Borealis in Reykjavik, Iceland Jan 2017

This year has been an amazing year for me. I have done so much as far as travel and friendships. I’ve been to some amazing places and spent time with some amazing people. I got to see the Aurora Borealis aka Northern Lights in Iceland in January. I also visited a small fishing village on the Baltic Sea with a Church that is more than 1100 years old in April. Both of these events were awe inspiring. They did leave me pausing and thinking about my purpose and place in this universe. I also have traveled to a lot of places in the US. It seems that I have been away from home almost every weekend this year. I have made some wonderful new friends and visited very dear family and friends during my travels.

But, it seemed that something was amiss during all of this amazing time in my life. I’ve had some personal issues come back up again and found myself starting to go down some dark places that my mind used to enjoy visiting in the past. This has been going on for a while but I kept trying to move past it. I was not having a lot of success and was traveling deeper into those dark places.

I finally realized what was happening. The ego likes to play tricks and makes it difficult at times to recognize our state of affairs. The old feels safe so we don’t always realize it right away. I had slowed down on working on my spiritual self. So, I started doing a lot of self work again. Recently after a meditation one night as I was falling asleep this is what came to me with a bang. It was like a bright light and very loud voice – “our thoughts create our reality”. Of course, I already knew this but when we start sliding away from our spiritual selves and what we already know its importance diminishes. I needed to start thinking positive thoughts that will move me forward and need to create visions of what I want in my life again. That is what got me to where I am – knowing, trusting and believing that the Universe will take care of everything. DUH!!!!!

I fell asleep after my revelation seeing my life being the way I want it to be. There is so much to be grateful for and there is so much I can change in my life by seeing things the way I want them to be. I am working constantly to not allow myself to travel down those dark roads that I sometimes travel. And when something does come up I immediately find the thought of what I want the situation to be in a positive way instead of the negative places my mind likes to stroll at times. My life and attitude has improved beyond my own expectations since this realization.

Follow your Spiritual guidance and the Universe will take care of you. Live your dreams. We are all a work in progress and we are all Spiritual beings in a 3D presence.

We just need to remember what we already know. It is so simple but so difficult at times.

Namaste!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Bonnie Butler
Trinity Energy Progression Facilitator/Practitioner