Posted by: Angela Coulter | on May 3, 2018
I am keenly aware that the dream is collapsing. The walls are crumbling down. All the energies that once held the dream together are now in disarray and reconstruction. I feel it means a realigning of sorts, after a period of chaos. At one time, I was afraid of the dream collapsing, and now I am now in complete acceptance. It is an unstoppable force. This is how it must be. And it’s a BEAUTIFUL reformation. I am free. You are free. The dream is free. The energy that once held all of this as prisoner is free. I feel the momentum growing and I often ask myself, “Who am I?” “Who are you?” You may be asking yourself the same questions. The old world is no more. The false contructs are no more. The former identities are no more. There is a new world cycle and it thrives on a new vibration—one of love and liberation. The heart is ALIVE and FREE. This is what we’ve been waiting for! As exhilarating as it is, it can still leave a feeling of emptiness. Attachments are gone. Questions pop up in my consciousness: “What does this mean to me NOW?” “Who am I NOW?” If I’m not the Sandy that I’ve always known, who am I? Sometimes it feels like I’m in an expanse of the void. I feel nothing at all and I’m attached to nothing at all. Yet I know I am everything. As I live in the moment, I am reminded that it’s Okay. All that matters is the NOW. Trusting that we have all we need in each moment and that we don’t need to have all the answers, is important. We don’t need to know who we are now because it will come together at the perfect moment. As we create our new reality, we are creating our new identity. Our authentic selves unfold naturally. All we need to do now is to allow the walls to fall down and allow the detachment to continue. Then we must follow our bliss. TRUST that a new story is unfolding! Trust oneself, because we ARE the guidance. As the dream collapses, it appears like there’s nothing of substance left, and that’s what causes the feeling of void. It can be very uncomfortable at first, however, the void is where we create. As the dream collapses, remembrance begins to unfold. As remembrance unfolds, we live the *MAGIC.*
Lately, I’ve been having a challenging time coming up with the words to describe my feelings–I feel like I’m floating in a sweep of nothing. It feels like a void, and at times, I feel like there is no purpose left for me here. The world feels so different, yet it looks the same. How do you describe it? For me, there’s this sense of nothingness and yet a sense of wholeness at the same time. A perception that it contains nothing, yet it contains everything. I am initially bewildered by my lack of description, yet I have peace that all is well. I often visit my local park to feel more connected to the whole. Whenever I go, I feel alive inside. It’s truly a magical park and I am reminded each time I go that I AM living the magic. (Good) things come easily and frequently, so that certainly wouldn’t be living “nothingness,” would it? If I give myself a moment, I am reminded of who I am and I how connected I am to the wholeness at all times, with or without this park. The wholeness in this park is connected to even more wholeness beyond itself. It is connected to worlds and universes that transcend human understanding. It contains vision that amplifies imagination. I have seen and felt this with my own senses.
Today, I visited my beautiful park to feel that connection that I love to feel there. A story came to my mind and it felt good to my heart, so I’m going to share it with you. It represents some of the things I have been feeling and unable to describe. See how it makes you feel. Does it open up a piece of remembrance? The story goes something like this….
As I am walking in my wondrous park I am in awe of my beautiful surroundings. I feel a sense of being lost, even though my senses see and feel all sorts of wonderful things. I feel connected, yet alone. I feel the nourishment of the earth, the healing waters, the warmth of the sun, and the infinity of the sky. I hear a call in the distance and it speaks through the park presence. “Who are you?” it says. It beckons in the wind, a whisper so soft and clear. “I do not know” I answer back. “I am everything and nothing.”
I take a step forward on the mighty earth and I sense the ground moving beneath me. I sense the support and foundation even while moving. A dazzling snake slithers in front of me. “Who are you?” it asks. “I do not know,” I answer. “I am everything and nothing.” The snake answers, “You are everything. You are transformation and pure life force energy. You own the earth and you have great power over it. Now go forth without fear and regret. Be a creative force. As you live in the now, you become the future.” I thanked the snake and took a moment to process.
I continue to walk upon the earth until I reach a great lake. I stare at its sparkling waters and rolling waves. A swan swoops down and lands before me. “Who are you?” it asks. “I do not know,” I answer. “I am everything and nothing.” “You are everything. You are fluidity, grace, and beauty. Feel your emotions and trust your intuition. Dance in the flow of dream and desire. You are a Flow-er of Energy. As you live in the now, you become the future.” I thanked the swan and took a moment to process.
I depart from the great lake and turn around to look at the mountain. I stare at its majesty and awe. From out of nowhere, a huge phoenix descends upon the rock in front of me. It has an exalted presence that transcends the earth. “Who are you?” it asks. “I do not know,” I answer. “I am everything and nothing.” “You are everything!” says the phoenix. “You are strong and fierce and bold. You are a vital, transmutable force. Rise up from the ashes and feel your power. Light your fire and show the way. As you live in the now, you become the future.” I thanked the phoenix and took a moment to process.
I proceed up the mountain and ascend to its highest point. I become one with the air, one with lightness and infinity. At that moment, a shiny blackbird sweeps down and lands on my shoulder. Its radiance of truth almost blinds me. “Who are you?” it says. “I do not know,” I answer. “I am everything and nothing.” “You are everything,” says the blackbird. “You are mystery and magic and secrets unknown. Your perception penetrates the depths of the ages. Rise to the higher realms and live your purest potential. Love will lead the way. As you live in the now, you become the future.” I thanked the blackbird and took a moment to process.
As I allow the integration of these truths to assimilate into wholeness, I descend upon the mountain and nest in the valley. Just then a striking blue dragon appears from the clouds. It lands gracefully and elegantly. It’s a keeper of alchemical energies. The dragon says to me, “I have been searching for you through a thousand worlds and ten thousand lifetimes. I have found you. I am in awe. You are the Master of all time. You are Master of the earth and all the planets. You are Master of the elements and crystalline light. You are Master of the Universe and the Multiverse. You are Infinity; you are the Expansion. There is nothing you cannot do. You are CREATOR of all. “Now, go forth and use your Creative Force Energy! It’s the essence of your being! The path is crystal clear. Nothing is in your way. No obstacles, no limits. CREATE, CREATE, CREATE. YOU are the Living MAGIC.”
This is my understanding. Dream is Collapsing, Remembrance is Unfolding. As we allow everything to assimilate into wholeness (without fear or judgment), we come ALIVE. There’s nothing we need to hold onto; let it flow out and away. It’s a beautiful unfolding. WE are the masters of the Universe/Multiverse. WE are the LIVING MAGIC. No holding back, GO CREATE!!!
Trinity Energy Progression Facilitator/Practitioner
Posted by: Angela Coulter | on April 3, 2018
Walking through life today is all about creating as we go. Every second is created and filled with stuff. It’s easy to get bogged down in the detail and emotion of it all. And it seems that becoming aware that we create in the moment only complicates the minute-to-minute with “thinking” about creating. Thinking, judging, rethinking, feeling, judging and rethinking over and over to ensure we are creating exactly what we desire in the moment. It can get overwhelming and paralyzing trying to keep up with the speed we live life and all its unexpected and possibly unwanted hurtles.
Each one of us is here right now for a reason or we wouldn’t be here. That is a challenge for those of us who are unsure of their purpose or those unsure how to move forward with their purpose. Add in the knowing that we create our reality and the pressure mounts. For some it becomes their life’s journey, maybe even obsession, to discover and fulfill that purpose.
We are also called at this time to do things differently to ensure we move this dimension into its next evolution. Something else kind of important we are creating! Most of us can only guess at what that looks or feels like. So how do we create what we don’t know anything about?! How do you create without any knowing?
The answer is the Art of Remembering. We created all of this. We planned every detail. So logically it follows that we have all the answers to every question possible, it’s just a matter of remembering them. Answers from resolving every day-to-day hurtle all the way to fulfilling your life’s purpose, lie in Remembering. Remembering you know how to create in the moment. Remembering you know how to face life’s core issues. Remembering you know how to be happy, joyful and fulfilled. Remembering you know how to remember all of it.
Remembering to remember is probably the most challenging part of creating this way. It changes how we behave and believe. It is a shift from Knowing in your head to Knowing (Remembering) in your heart. It is a shift from using your mental senses of hearing, smelling, seeing, feeling and tasting to the senses of the heart and remembering those. It is changing the basic habits of living.
Trust is another facet of Remembering. I see it as a natural result of being 100% there for yourself. Staying in the authentic self naturally moves us to a place of trust in our heart senses.
Like with any form of art, it takes practice and patience to feel comfortable creating through Remembering. Comfort leads to confidence, which leads to a new level of joy, happiness and fulfillment most of us have yet to remember creating. So, set yourself to flow, go with it and see what you remember along the way!
Trinity Energy Progression Facilitator/Practitioner
Posted by: Angela Coulter | on March 28, 2018
I often notice energy themes that are present in my sessions that come up to be addressed or resolved. For instance, a theme could be many people experiencing an issue such as feeling stuck in their jobs or relationships. The theme that has been showing up for several years and is amplified right now is about becoming and allowing your true, authentic, powerful self to emerge. This is the version of you that you may call your higher self, or spirit self. It’s the part of you that is full of infinite wisdom and love and knows itself as eternal. It is everything your thinking mind, or your ego mind is not.
Our ego has been designed to perceive this world through a very limited lens, primarily one of fear and feeling separation from our higher self, source energy (God) and others. Our true self, which exists in Oneness, knows no limitation or separation. True you vibrates in love and therefore, you vibrate and exist in only love, but we all forgot that this is true and often are very far from being in love with ourselves! What I do to open up this part of me, is connect inward everyday to get a taste of that love and bliss that is always available for me. This isn’t a mental connection, it is a connection through BEing and existing in the present moment.
So back to expressing the “power of you” theme. We are in a space where we are being called to step into our true selves in a bigger and more authentic way. All that stuff that we hold within us that is of fear, lack, unworthiness, limitation, powerlessness is coming up to be resolved, so we can hold more of our true light. This is a frequency thing were these lower vibrational emotions hold us down, but as we love and release them, our higher vibrational self can emerge.
I was talking with a good friend about this today and of course she has been experiencing some of this too! See, the theme is loud as it presents itself! We were discussing how scary it is to show our whole self to others. The light and the dark parts! Often, we hide the parts of ourselves that we judge as bad or wrong, and only show our “good” face to the world. The face that we want people to see and the face that we think will get approval and love. At the end of the day, we are all just seeking love and we think that if don’t act or be a certain way, we won’t get it, which is the scariest thing in the world! So, we judge and hide the version of us that won’t rock the boat or potentially anger someone. We can be so afraid of what people think about us, that we often will bend who we are to please them.
When you’re only showing the world one part of you that you think they want to see or hear, you’re actually not bringing in the people or experiences that are a match for you, because you’re hiding the whole of you. Energy attracts like energy and people attract like people, so if you’re holding back on being YOU as the whole true you, you’re missing out on some really good stuff! Relationships that are a close match and experiences that are more in resonance with what your really want.
I had another experience lately where I was meditating with some friends in a Native American nature reserve and we were playing crystal bowls and drums while shifting some energy. We began our practice while no one was around even though we knew there were other people in the park. After while, we were really flowing with energy and here I am, beating this drum (I’ve always had some aversion to drums, so I was doing it to get over it!)… so of course, some people walked towards us and I opened my eyes upon hearing the crunch of their footsteps. I immediately got embarrassed and wondered what they were thinking. Another part of me asked myself, “Who cares?” A deeper part of me said, “I do… What if they judge me and think terrible thoughts about me? Who’s that white girl banging on a drum like she’s a native American? Who does she think she is letting her freak flag fly? She doesn’t even like drums anyway!” (Although I really was getting into it!)
I then got a message from my higher self, saying that I would be putting myself out there in much more bigger ways than this. If I am to show up as the bright, shiny true version of me, I would have to get comfortable with getting uncomfortable (at first). Sooooo, I’ve been feeling into other ways I’ve been holding myself back and I have a feeling more of me will be coming out to play soon!
So…Are you ready to ‘fly your freak flag” so you get to be more of you? In doing so, more of your gifts get to surface and you get the shine the brightest! What is holding you back? Let’s do this!
Trinity Energy Progression Facilitator/Practitioner
Posted by: Angela Coulter | on March 19, 2018
Perception. Everything in your life, good or bad, and whether you think it is good or bad, is based upon your perception. Do you see the glass half-empty or half-full? If you ask for blue and get yellow, are you angry or upset that you did not get blue? Or do you think, “I can work with yellow”? Or maybe you imagine what all the wonderful possibilities of yellow are? Even better, do you say “Actually, yellow is perfect for me, thank you Universe!”
What you perceive creates your reality. “Change your mind, change your life.” It sounds easy, doesn’t it? If only that were so!
I have spent a large portion of my life asking “Why is this happening to me?” or “Why am I always sick?” or “What did I do to deserve this?” You get the idea. Then one day, when I was at a very low point, the realization struck me that, “I am sick because I keep telling myself I am sick. Things don’t get better because I won’t allow things to be better. Stop being a victim and do something different. You are what is in your way, and it is not anyone else’s fault or responsibility.”
My first step was to start walking while listening to meditative cds. I started feeling better when I started allowing myself to just be. I started paying attention to my intuition and what it was telling me about my health (and my life). I spent a lot of time worrying whether my intuitive gifts were “right,” and if they were “good enough” for me to pay attention to. Through books, various classes, and healing modalities, I ended up at a Trinity Practitioner class taught by Jennifer Cunnings. This was very awkward for me, as I kept thinking “I don’t belong here, I have no idea what I am doing, and my intuitive gifts are inferior to everyone else’s.” And so on. The negative mind chatter was in full force! However, through that class, I met some lovely people and made at least one lifelong friend, a true soul sister who talked me into going to Mount Shasta. (Thank you, Kris!) I think everyone would agree that the experience in Mount Shasta was not just beautiful, but also life-changing for all who attended… and I met more lifelong friends!
Perception and manifesting go hand-in-hand. Just look at what is showing up for you in your life and that will tell you what the state of your mind is. Personally, I think we are all great manifestors. I know that I am. I have manifested some pretty crappy things into existence in my life, but I have also manifested really beautiful and life-affirming things as well. There is a power to words, especially in what you tell yourself. What you believe/perceive about yourself becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy. If you say “I can’t,” then that becomes your reality. Growing up, I was told what I could not do and what I was doing wrong. Nothing I did was ever good enough; I just needed “to toughen up and quit being so sensitive.” Therefore, I have spent most of my life beating myself up for (a) not being perfect and (b) being too sensitive, even actively trying to be a tougher, harder personality. No wonder I became so ill! Now I realize that my sensitivity is my greatest gift, and of course I am not perfect. That is why I am here on Earth in the first place. I am a work in progress.
In the Winnie the Pooh universe, Christopher Robin tells Pooh “You are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think.” When Pooh tries to relay this bit of wisdom to his friends, he gets all mixed up and says “You’re braver than a bee, and taller than a beam, and you are smarter when you’re pink”! Even though the message according to Pooh seems nonsensical, it was exactly what his friends needed to hear, and thus, perfect. (Better, in my opinion!)
In conclusion, if there is something in your life causing you unhappiness or discord, try changing your perception. Remember: You ARE enough! And your gifts, whatever they may be, are perfect.
And we are all smarter when we’re pink!
Trinity Energy Progression Facilitator/Practitioner
Posted by: Angela Coulter | on March 12, 2018
As I attempt to write this article for all of you amazing beings, I find that my fear is building within my body, as the obligation to write this article has forced me out of my comfort zone and to step out of the closet. Which ironically, has been my statement or affirmation for 2018. I keep telling others that this is my year to do just that and be my true authentic self…but stepping out of the closet just doesn’t sound elegant or enough. Therefore, I have decided to affirm that I am breaking free from the chains that bind me (placed on myself) and keep me from being who I truly am meant to be. I am choosing to Be Me and Be Free. However, I must confess that actually putting myself out there for the whole world to see is quite scary and it’s easy to “write” this affirmation down but very different to truly act upon it.
Working in a corporate environment for years, I often find myself not being true to me, as I usually put the needs of others before myself. This most often has turned into unnecessary stress and illness. The stress and illness forced me to take a good hard look at my life, which led me to seek my spirituality. Through this, I’ve learned techniques and tools to assist in my survival in this environment. Typically, I’m able to keep my body (mainly hives) in a calm state using these techniques; however, when stress overload and/or not being my authentic self occurs, my body graciously reminds (or shouts out) for me to wake up and remember. I listen often; however, at times the fear gets the better of me and I shut down. I desperately seek to be my own unique self, speak my truth, and shine my light while not worrying what my colleagues or anyone for that matter will think of me and judge me.
A good friend recently told me that my job is to remove the fears that keep my light hidden. Wow. That really resonated with my soul as I can feel it when I dim my light down to make other people comfortable….including myself. Why did I do that? It’s time for me to allow. Do any of you ever feel like you adapt to make others comfortable?
So, how do I find the courage to keep my light shining strong, keep my vibration elevated at all times regardless of any situation (good or bad) and stand up/stand strong in my belief that I am best as my true authentic self? Fear has so many layers in me….where the heck does it all come from? Just when I think I’ve worked through and processed it, wham! Another layer. However, I know this is all part of my journey…and Trinity has assisted in my awakening. I am so very grateful to have had the amazing opportunity to travel to Mt. Shasta, CA this past September to attend the Trinity Facilitator training as this experience was life changing and assisted me in processing through so much fear, allowing me to accept and remember my divinity.
So, if you do not “get” anything else out of this blog, I hope you get this…when I do my daily self-work, I am able to shift and process through so much more “stuff.” Every single day and every single step, I get a little closer to living my truth. Stand in that mirror and look at your beauty. Tell yourself how much you love yourself, meditate, journal, say your creation statements. Invest in you…YOU are amazing and worth it!
I choose to do my daily self-work, to just be me and love myself unconditionally. It’s that simple. Fear or love….fear no longer serves me and I enthusiastically choose love…unconditional love, it’s my super power and it is yours…I encourage each of you to embrace your super power and live your truth…authentically. I Am!
I love you all fiercely!
Trinity Energy Progression Facilitator/Practitioner