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The Itchy Wool Sweater Test… on the Spiritual Journey
Things are falling away. All things. Family, friends, connection to places and things. It’s so hard to believe sometimes, but here I am. This has at times made me feel so alone… but when I get past the habit of the reaction, freedom is all I feel! I have noticed that many of my emotional reactions are habitual and connected to specific recurrent events. They are the old self-imposed expectations under which I am still operating: the roles I cling to, the habitual ways of being and thinking am I used to. I realize that I no longer need to fall into those patterns. I can choose to do it differently. When I remember that there are no rules, that nothing has to be done “that way” again… the freedom overwhelms me! The freedom of being who we are with no boundaries! The freedom of choosing only the things that bring us to the awareness of Us! This is why so many things are falling away.
The more I become authentically Me, the more those people and things that/who don’t resonate move away. The more I become authentically Me, the more things that don’t resonate within me are shown to me. It feels like I keep bringing in more of Me, Remembering more of Me. The way I can describe what this feels like is that I can actually feel the substance of my being more powerfully and more physically. I am coming into a more full remembrance of who I am. I feel more solid. I feel more full of the awareness and power of who I am. I am adjusting to it.
This adjustment has caused what I call “the wool sweater phenomena”: When I am making choices that are not aligned with my authentic self, my life feels like a scratchy wool sweater. Not that a wool sweater isn’t warm and snuggly on a cold winter day, but when it’s worn on bare skin it can be one of the most uncomfortable pieces of clothing! I know I chose this as a reminder to pull me back to Being Me. I wanted a reminder that was gentle, easy, but persistent. Loud enough I would listen, but not so loud it would knock me over the head. This would remind me of my commitment to Authenticity. A reminder to look at what is not resonating with Me and not to fall in patterns that no longer serve. Patterns that are not going to move me in the direction of True Self. This irritable feeling of constriction and friction reminds me that I am not in my Wholeness. That I am giving my power away to a situation, to another, to a thing, to a behavior, etc. You name it. Whatever it is, it is not aligning with who I am… and the wool sweater feeling is the tap on the shoulder to pay attention and to remember to change it by aligning thought, word, and deed to Wholeness.
Although very uncomfortable, I’m grateful for my “wool sweater” reminder. I am hopeful that I do not lose sight of my commitment and that I see the distractions for what they are so I don’t choose a bigger tap on the shoulder! Staying in the awareness that we are choosing all the time, in every area of our existence is so liberating. The validation that this has brought me has also been immeasurable. Every constricting wool sweater feeling is the reminder that I am definitely not in alignment with my expansive self. It is my opportunity to exercise my Creator muscle. To observe, allow understanding and then change to be in the Truth of my Wholeness.
Whatever our chosen reminders are, they are there to lead us to our Wholeness. They are there to continually bring awareness to who we Are. The Divine Beings that we are, are not observers of our lives but the active creators of it. Whatever “wool sweater” you have chosen, remember its purpose. Remember that if you don’t like it, you can change it. You are choosing the path to your True Self. As we are getting closer, we are resonating to our true vibration and everything is aligning to that. While we don’t have full remembrance of what ultimate alignment is yet, in choice we create the space to allow Wholeness to expand.
Cathy Guido
Trinity Energy Progression Facilitator/Practitioner
BEing the TRUE You
I often notice energy themes that are present in my sessions that come up to be addressed or resolved. For instance, a theme could be many people experiencing an issue such as feeling stuck in their jobs or relationships. The theme that has been showing up for several years and is amplified right now is about becoming and allowing your true, authentic, powerful self to emerge. This is the version of you that you may call your higher self, or spirit self. It’s the part of you that is full of infinite wisdom and love and knows itself as eternal. It is everything your thinking mind, or your ego mind is not.
Our ego has been designed to perceive this world through a very limited lens, primarily one of fear and feeling separation from our higher self, source energy (God) and others. Our true self, which exists in Oneness, knows no limitation or separation. True you vibrates in love and therefore, you vibrate and exist in only love, but we all forgot that this is true and often are very far from being in love with ourselves! What I do to open up this part of me, is connect inward everyday to get a taste of that love and bliss that is always available for me. This isn’t a mental connection, it is a connection through BEing and existing in the present moment.
So back to expressing the “power of you” theme. We are in a space where we are being called to step into our true selves in a bigger and more authentic way. All that stuff that we hold within us that is of fear, lack, unworthiness, limitation, powerlessness is coming up to be resolved, so we can hold more of our true light. This is a frequency thing were these lower vibrational emotions hold us down, but as we love and release them, our higher vibrational self can emerge.
I was talking with a good friend about this today and of course she has been experiencing some of this too! See, the theme is loud as it presents itself! We were discussing how scary it is to show our whole self to others. The light and the dark parts! Often, we hide the parts of ourselves that we judge as bad or wrong, and only show our “good” face to the world. The face that we want people to see and the face that we think will get approval and love. At the end of the day, we are all just seeking love and we think that if don’t act or be a certain way, we won’t get it, which is the scariest thing in the world! So, we judge and hide the version of us that won’t rock the boat or potentially anger someone. We can be so afraid of what people think about us, that we often will bend who we are to please them.
When you’re only showing the world one part of you that you think they want to see or hear, you’re actually not bringing in the people or experiences that are a match for you, because you’re hiding the whole of you. Energy attracts like energy and people attract like people, so if you’re holding back on being YOU as the whole true you, you’re missing out on some really good stuff! Relationships that are a close match and experiences that are more in resonance with what your really want.
I had another experience lately where I was meditating with some friends in a Native American nature reserve and we were playing crystal bowls and drums while shifting some energy. We began our practice while no one was around even though we knew there were other people in the park. After while, we were really flowing with energy and here I am, beating this drum (I’ve always had some aversion to drums, so I was doing it to get over it!)… so of course, some people walked towards us and I opened my eyes upon hearing the crunch of their footsteps. I immediately got embarrassed and wondered what they were thinking. Another part of me asked myself, “Who cares?” A deeper part of me said, “I do… What if they judge me and think terrible thoughts about me? Who’s that white girl banging on a drum like she’s a native American? Who does she think she is letting her freak flag fly? She doesn’t even like drums anyway!” (Although I really was getting into it!)
I then got a message from my higher self, saying that I would be putting myself out there in much more bigger ways than this. If I am to show up as the bright, shiny true version of me, I would have to get comfortable with getting uncomfortable (at first). Sooooo, I’ve been feeling into other ways I’ve been holding myself back and I have a feeling more of me will be coming out to play soon!
So…Are you ready to ‘fly your freak flag” so you get to be more of you? In doing so, more of your gifts get to surface and you get the shine the brightest! What is holding you back? Let’s do this!
Jennifer Cunnings
Trinity Energy Progression Facilitator/Practitioner
Authentically Me!
What does it mean to be authentic? To me, it’s to be true to myself, to allow the expression of who I am in this moment to be freely expressed with true divine resonance. When I come upon resistance within myself or a lack of rapport with others, it is due to feeling, sensing or believing that I am not being heard, seen or perceived as my true essence. When I am in accord with my true self; loving, accepting and embracing all the dimensions and aspects that make me who I am, in this moment, my purpose is being fulfilled in the easiest and most graceful way, The friction effortlessly falls away!
When resistance arises, I am usually trying to adapt my or your paradigm. I am attempting to understand, equalize, harmonize and be at peace with a vibration that feels discordant to me. I relinquish the notion that I need to try and affect or change your perception of me, of yourself, of the Universe. The natural order is shifting, and will continue to do so. I can embrace, or I can resist. I allow this moment to be the perfection that it truly is. I fully embrace and exude what it means on all levels, dimensions through the electric multi-verse to be me in this moment. I embrace and welcome you to be you. As I embrace my authentic self completely, it allows me to experience the truth that we are all one, that we are love.
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Heather Smothers
Trinity Energy Progression Practitioner/Facilitator
D5 Creation