I am keenly aware that the dream is collapsing. The walls are crumbling down. All the energies that once held the dream together are now in disarray and reconstruction. I feel it means a realigning of sorts, after a period of chaos. At one time, I was afraid of the dream collapsing, and now I am now in complete acceptance. It is an unstoppable force. This is how it must be. And it’s a BEAUTIFUL reformation. I am free. You are free. The dream is free. The energy that once held all of this as prisoner is free. I feel the momentum growing and I often ask myself, “Who am I?” “Who are you?” You may be asking yourself the same questions. The old world is no more. The false contructs are no more. The former identities are no more. There is a new world cycle and it thrives on a new vibration—one of love and liberation. The heart is ALIVE and FREE. This is what we’ve been waiting for! As exhilarating as it is, it can still leave a feeling of emptiness. Attachments are gone. Questions pop up in my consciousness: “What does this mean to me NOW?” “Who am I NOW?” If I’m not the Sandy that I’ve always known, who am I? Sometimes it feels like I’m in an expanse of the void. I feel nothing at all and I’m attached to nothing at all. Yet I know I am everything. As I live in the moment, I am reminded that it’s Okay. All that matters is the NOW. Trusting that we have all we need in each moment and that we don’t need to have all the answers, is important. We don’t need to know who we are now because it will come together at the perfect moment. As we create our new reality, we are creating our new identity. Our authentic selves unfold naturally. All we need to do now is to allow the walls to fall down and allow the detachment to continue. Then we must follow our bliss. TRUST that a new story is unfolding! Trust oneself, because we ARE the guidance. As the dream collapses, it appears like there’s nothing of substance left, and that’s what causes the feeling of void. It can be very uncomfortable at first, however, the void is where we create. As the dream collapses, remembrance begins to unfold. As remembrance unfolds, we live the *MAGIC.*

Lately, I’ve been having a challenging time coming up with the words to describe my feelings–I feel like I’m floating in a sweep of nothing. It feels like a void, and at times, I feel like there is no purpose left for me here. The world feels so different, yet it looks the same. How do you describe it? For me, there’s this sense of nothingness and yet a sense of wholeness at the same time. A perception that it contains nothing, yet it contains everything. I am initially bewildered by my lack of description, yet I have peace that all is well. I often visit my local park to feel more connected to the whole. Whenever I go, I feel alive inside. It’s truly a magical park and I am reminded each time I go that I AM living the magic. (Good) things come easily and frequently, so that certainly wouldn’t be living “nothingness,” would it? If I give myself a moment, I am reminded of who I am and I how connected I am to the wholeness at all times, with or without this park. The wholeness in this park is connected to even more wholeness beyond itself. It is connected to worlds and universes that transcend human understanding. It contains vision that amplifies imagination. I have seen and felt this with my own senses.

Today, I visited my beautiful park to feel that connection that I love to feel there. A story came to my mind and it felt good to my heart, so I’m going to share it with you. It represents some of the things I have been feeling and unable to describe. See how it makes you feel. Does it open up a piece of remembrance? The story goes something like this….

As I am walking in my wondrous park I am in awe of my beautiful surroundings. I feel a sense of being lost, even though my senses see and feel all sorts of wonderful things. I feel connected, yet alone. I feel the nourishment of the earth, the healing waters, the warmth of the sun, and the infinity of the sky. I hear a call in the distance and it speaks through the park presence. “Who are you?” it says. It beckons in the wind, a whisper so soft and clear. “I do not know” I answer back. “I am everything and nothing.”

I take a step forward on the mighty earth and I sense the ground moving beneath me. I sense the support and foundation even while moving. A dazzling snake slithers in front of me. “Who are you?” it asks. “I do not know,” I answer. “I am everything and nothing.” The snake answers, “You are everything. You are transformation and pure life force energy. You own the earth and you have great power over it. Now go forth without fear and regret. Be a creative force. As you live in the now, you become the future.” I thanked the snake and took a moment to process.

I continue to walk upon the earth until I reach a great lake. I stare at its sparkling waters and rolling waves. A swan swoops down and lands before me. “Who are you?” it asks. “I do not know,” I answer. “I am everything and nothing.” “You are everything. You are fluidity, grace, and beauty. Feel your emotions and trust your intuition. Dance in the flow of dream and desire. You are a Flow-er of Energy. As you live in the now, you become the future.” I thanked the swan and took a moment to process.

I depart from the great lake and turn around to look at the mountain. I stare at its majesty and awe. From out of nowhere, a huge phoenix descends upon the rock in front of me. It has an exalted presence that transcends the earth. “Who are you?” it asks. “I do not know,” I answer. “I am everything and nothing.” “You are everything!” says the phoenix. “You are strong and fierce and bold. You are a vital, transmutable force. Rise up from the ashes and feel your power. Light your fire and show the way. As you live in the now, you become the future.” I thanked the phoenix and took a moment to process.

I proceed up the mountain and ascend to its highest point. I become one with the air, one with lightness and infinity. At that moment, a shiny blackbird sweeps down and lands on my shoulder. Its radiance of truth almost blinds me. “Who are you?” it says. “I do not know,” I answer. “I am everything and nothing.” “You are everything,” says the blackbird. “You are mystery and magic and secrets unknown. Your perception penetrates the depths of the ages. Rise to the higher realms and live your purest potential. Love will lead the way. As you live in the now, you become the future.” I thanked the blackbird and took a moment to process.

As I allow the integration of these truths to assimilate into wholeness, I descend upon the mountain and nest in the valley. Just then a striking blue dragon appears from the clouds. It lands gracefully and elegantly. It’s a keeper of alchemical energies. The dragon says to me, “I have been searching for you through a thousand worlds and ten thousand lifetimes. I have found you. I am in awe. You are the Master of all time. You are Master of the earth and all the planets. You are Master of the elements and crystalline light. You are Master of the Universe and the Multiverse. You are Infinity; you are the Expansion. There is nothing you cannot do. You are CREATOR of all. “Now, go forth and use your Creative Force Energy! It’s the essence of your being! The path is crystal clear. Nothing is in your way. No obstacles, no limits. CREATE, CREATE, CREATE. YOU are the Living MAGIC.”

This is my understanding. Dream is Collapsing, Remembrance is Unfolding. As we allow everything to assimilate into wholeness (without fear or judgment), we come ALIVE. There’s nothing we need to hold onto; let it flow out and away. It’s a beautiful unfolding. WE are the masters of the Universe/Multiverse. WE are the LIVING MAGIC. No holding back, GO CREATE!!!

Sandy Anthony
Trinity Energy Progression Facilitator/Practitioner