Tag: Tammy Taylor
Law of Attraction in Action
I wrote a personal blog entry some time ago titled “I Believe”. In that particular piece I was sharing my feelings and thoughts on the things that I believe make life extraordinary. I felt compelled to write it because I had been reflecting on how very special specific experiences can be, especially those involving other people. One of the lines I wrote was “I believe in holding hands, giving hugs, and soft, sweet butterfly kisses.” What made this so interesting is that a few days after I had written that, I had the following experience.
A colleague and dear friend of mine stopped by my work place to say hello. As I was walking down the hallway back to my office I hear this familiar voice yelling “Tam-may”. I instantly recognized the sound of her voice and quickly turned to see my friend smiling and glowing as if she’d just won the lottery. There she is, arms outstretched ready to hug me as we always do when we see each other a few times during the year. How quickly time goes by and too often we don’t notice until we are reminded once more that we’ve missed seeing someone dear to us.
After our hug, not wasting any time, she quickly took my hand and led me down the hallway of the department, passing all the offices of my colleagues, out into the exterior lobby of the building. As I was experiencing holding my friend’s hand, I was witnessing everything happening as if it was an “out-of-body” experience. As I watched, perched above as the omniscient being that I am, I noticed the nervousness in my body. After all, typically I’m not one to participate in public displays of affection. I tend to be more private, although I must admit it felt wonderful to share in this experience with her. As we exited the lobby we rounded the corner to find two of her co-workers waiting for the elevator. She quickly introduces us, all the while holding my hand and smiling from her heart. As the elevator arrived, my friend hugged me again and as she did, I felt the softness of her eyelashes brush across my cheek.
The next morning I took some time to reflect on that experience with my friend and remembered what I had written less than two weeks before, which was ….. “I believe in holding hands, giving hugs, and soft, sweet butterfly kisses.” I was amazed at how all of it had unfolded just as I had written it to be. Shortly after my realization of this manifestation, my friend stopped by to see me again. I recounted this story to her in detail, explaining how she had been an active participant in my manifestation of the words I had written. She sat there beaming as she listened to how everything had unfolded. As I’m sharing the story with her I say to her, you know, this is just what pure love feels like, isn’t it? She nodded her head in agreement that what we feel towards each other is nothing less than that. We then talked about how it’s always been that way between us, since the first time we met more than fifteen years ago. People used to look at us and comment, not understanding what we might share in common. But we knew what was there for us, somehow we have known all along. It’s pure, unconditional love.
If there is an intention in sharing this story with you it is this; to let you see through this experience how the universe unfolds in such a magnificent way when we allow the law of attraction to deliver to us whatever it is that we’ve asked for. This is not the first experience that I have had like this; it’s one of many that I observe on a regular basis in my life. I am grateful to have this awareness, and appreciate what can feel like magic in my life every day.
Tammy Taylor
Facilitator, Trinity Energy Progression™
Up From the Ashes
“Whether we remain the ash or become the phoenix is up to us.” ~ Ming-Dao Deng
I lay in bed that morning, languishing somewhere between waking and dreaming. This particular morning felt much different than all the others as I tried to navigate through the fog that was my mind. Even though I was just waking up for the day, I felt exhausted. It was the kind of tiredness that permeated every particle and fiber of my being. I somehow felt as if my spirit, my everlasting soul, the essence of who I know myself to be, was in the process of leaving my body, for the last time. My first thought was of my children. In that brief moment of quiet reflection, I decided that together they would be alright in the world without me. In desperation, I summoned my spiritual guides and angels, requesting their much needed help. I felt as though I no longer had the will, or the strength to carry on. Before I drifted back off to sleep, my last conscious thought was declaring to myself, “I surrender.”
After more than fifty years in this body, enduring childhood abuse, domestic violence, neglect, poverty, and ultimately trying to work through all of it in therapy, I had never surrendered before, I had never entirely given up – on me. A survivor, a fighter, it had always gone against my nature to admit that perhaps I could not count on myself any longer. It felt as if all of the suffering and pain had finally taken its toll. In what seemed like my darkest hour, I came to the realization that something would have to be different. I could no longer survive in the world like this.
Living most of my life in a deep state of denial, I thought about the words someone dear to me once said, “…once denial is broken, you can never go back.” I looked upon this vivid, yet surreal experience and felt such gratitude and at the same time, a deep sense of sadness that this is how it would end. The death grip I’d had on life was slipping, I could no longer hold on. I found myself in a place I had heard about but had never personally experienced. A place where one arrives, perhaps not knowing how they came to be there. A place one can only access after letting go of absolutely everything else.
My expectation was that I would drift off to sleep and not wake up. That somehow I would continue to depart my body and my spirit would exit this earthly existence.
What happened next was quite a surprise to me. As soon as I chose to surrender and let go, I heard a voice inside me say, “It’s not your time.” No words can express the relief and freedom I felt in that moment. Not only did I recognize that I was not alone, I knew from that point forward, my life would never be the same again. It was such a life changing and deeply freeing experience to finally, finally know that even when I was at my lowest point, I am not alone – I am – always here, in this eternal Now!
Tammy Taylor
Facilitator, Trinity Energy Progression
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