As I’ve spent a lot of time culling down my practices and focus areas over the end-of-year holidays… I tend to really love them, from both the 3D and the higher consciousness levels.

However, unexpectedly, this holiday season has been pretty challenging for me, and for awhile, I hadn’t received the conscious understanding as to why that was. It made no sense; overall; this year has been stupendous, lots of fun, lots of flow, lots of growth… and I figured I would just transition easily and effortlessly into an enjoyable holiday season.

For awhile, I couldn’t figure out why that wasn’t so.

I’ve done all of this energetic healing around abundance, around letting go of the past we tend to hold on to during the end-of-year holidays, since we tend to abide so tightly to tradition, ceremony, and rituals. We’ve culled our holiday decorations in our house, we’ve gotten new ones… and started some new traditions. The last several years have been phenomenal! However… from the beginning, I just couldn’t get myself to engage in the season this year.

Simultaneously, we’ve just been going through bigger and bigger metaphysical doorways of transition, growth, and HUGE expansion. That’s been GREAT… and yet, it started to trip me up around the end of November. I realize that my situations are far from being as challenging as many others, and I also realize I do a lot of energetic work at the “infrastructure” levels – oversouls/collectives/etc. that sometimes cause a “heavier flow” energetically, if only very temporarily.

While continuously releasing, expanding, and evolving on that front, I noticed more and more friction and irritation inside of me around the holidays, around some of the most minute things: so much I was observing in the interactions of others felt contrived; I noticed I had very little patience for holiday music, noticing that the entire season is generally built off of about 20 songs (and their hundreds of renditions); even unhappiness with the beautiful and simple tree we chose to bring home and decorate. During a season when I typically feel SO in the flow of it… I felt nothing, and actually, a little bit lost! And I pondered about that…  while also noticing that the flow had slowed down quite a bit. In fact, there were many unusual “stop and go” moments throughout that felt like I was riding in a stick shift car with a screwed up clutch! I was having a challenging time synching up my spiritual self and my 3D self… and that alone frustrated me.

The realization came together for me early this week (just in time LOL)… and now, looking back on the eve of the season, I do remember hearing Jeshua’s voice when I first noticed this, telling me all that matters is simply the way that I LIVE now. I sort of brushed that comment aside. I should’ve known better (being that it’s Jeshua LOL) and looked at it from this perspective earlier!

In the past years, I’ve shifted to a place far more centered from a place of love… all year round. I connect with others from the heart, and those with whom I’m drawn to connect are those I feel guided to have in my life. Whether I speak with someone once during the year or daily, whether I interact with them on social media or in person… if they’re there, it’s because my HEART knows they belong there; we serve a purpose in each other’s realities in some way. If we’re not… then we’re not. There’s no regrets; there are many with whom I have a connection that doesn’t necessitate our regular connection here in the 3D… though they’re just as important as others, just in a different way. There are others with whom I’ve fulfilled our interaction “agreements”… and we are free to go along our separate individual journeys. Again… I still have a huge amount of gratitude and love I have for them…this includes friends and biological family alike!! I also allow relationships to exist outside of any predetermined box, vs. based on 3D’s societal expectations – whatever they look like, and however it serves us as the involved parties is PERFECT as we choose for our journeys.

It’s SO freeing and pure to be able to live this way!

However, this year, I’ve noticed the feeling, which I realize now has been largely from the collective level – which exacerbated the volume of it in my consciousness  – that though there are many who do truly love the holidays for the connection to others, there’s far more of the collective creating the constant energy of frenetic obligation. So often, we spend so much time focusing on – and often fretting over – who we “have to” get gifts for, how much money we have (or don’t have) to spend, who we “have to” see, what we “have to” do… that on a larger level, so many speed through the holidays to finish off the checklist and get to the finish line! We’ve forgotten the real reason for the season, which is love in the highest vibration… Divine, unconditional love.

With Divine love, it just IS. We just ARE. This is all that is needed, except that remembrance, and that PRACTICE!

Often, even when we profess to be the MOST focused on that via our practices (often within a belief system) we tend to be held up in rituals and ceremony of obligation… vs. acting from the heart. There are many, many lessons for releasing the ego embedded in all of this! So often, one does a “good deed” largely for the purpose of telling others about the good deed (thus, proving value as a “good person”), vs. just because of guidance from the heart, without needing external validation. So many activities, so many practices are carried out because that’s what’s been passed down or influenced by others… without the individual considering if it’s truly heart felt, or just going through the moves. So many turn the season into a “keeping up with the Joneses” or making someone else happy for the sake of proving “what a good person they are” vs. just doing what feels right.

Time to change all of that!

What I realize I was feeling was a great incongruency between who I am now and what I do from the heart, without the additional need to “package it in a box” the way the season tends to be dictated in our 3D world. Though I’ve changed much of that, and have been living it this year more purely than ever before, at some level I felt like I needed to fit myself back into “the box” – no matter how subtly – to fulfill a certain role and practice during the season. It was THAT feeling – the collective reflecting back to me the amplification of whatever crumbs were left of that box within – that was causing such a disconnection (and in some cases, outright friction/resistance).

When we remember how to exist from that place of Divine love, for the Self and all around us, we simply hold our relationships and our Earth experience in the utmost gratitude and acceptance of the perfection of everything… regardless of what it “looks like” to others. When we start living that way day to day, a feeling of joviality and happiness is an everyday occurrence… and we incorporate that into all parts of our lives, all the time, all year round. We become more open and free about our love and joy, and therefore, the need to package it in a box simply goes away… because it becomes Christmas (or fill in the blank with your related holiday) EVERY day. And it just gets better and better! So, start today… honor yourself and those you love with the truest, purist you that you can be, and make EVERY day a holiday!  😉

Much, much love to you and yours this season and ALWAYS… and namaste,

Angela Coulter
Originator, Trinity Energy Progression