Tag: awakening
Ascending the Throne
The title I use for what I do is Transformation Coach. When people ask what that entails, I say high vibrational energy work. Most people associate energy work with physical healing, which is one aspect of it. However, I prefer to describe my work as the energy of liberation; both for others and myself! This liberation results from resolving and releasing soul agreements/contracts (what many believe to be karmic patterns) that keep us trapped in limiting “scripts,” such as dysfunctional roles, unhealthy relationships, physical pain, etc. By taking full responsibility for the circumstances in our lives, we can embrace the lessons they present, release ourselves from the unhealthy dynamics, and choose more harmonious experiences.
It’s so gratifying to see the dramatic transformations in our lives as a result of releasing soul agreements. Personally, one of the big ones I was able to identify and release was with my Twin Soul, freeing both of us to proceed along our individual life paths while remaining on loving terms.
I’ve also assisted a number of others in their release of this kind of energy in a variety of related areas, including:
- looking at and taking responsibility for (and clearing) the major medical conditions manifested in an attempt to get the attention of their Twin Flame;
- clearing the feeling of obligation in carrying other people’s burdens (which had caused excruciating back pain and spinal cysts);
- clearing ancestral responsibility;
- freeing children from having to take on the role of caregivers;
- releasing of caretaking agreements between spouses (which relieved one spouse from having to sacrifice his/her life to care for the other);
- … the list goes on!
As for myself, one area in which I’ve experienced success is in releasing my own patterns of assuming unnecessary responsibility in relationships, which allows me to focus on my work while the other person remains in charge of his/her growth.
Most recently, I’ve received the message that it’s time to start living without soul agreements. I’ve understood that once we conclude our soul lessons we can move beyond the limitation of agreements altogether. We have the freedom to “make it up as we go along,” creating the reality we desire. When asked about a client’s new relationship contract, I was told there was none. I was shown a throne, and heard, “Ascend the throne.” I understood that what we choose is less important than the process of creative self-determination.
When we ascend the throne, we become kings and queens of all that we observe and experience. This new approach applies to more than just relationships. It’s a tectonic shift from the traditional approach of self-compromise, reactivity, over-compensation, unhappiness, and lack that have characterized many peoples’ experience of life, work, relationships, finances, etc. We start by looking into our own hearts and listening to our truth, desires, and guidance.
Based on this inner wisdom, we affirm that the elements we wish to manifest in our lives are already present in the best/highest form for us. For example, “I am abundantly supported for simply being who I am. As I resonate at the level of pure unconditional love, all my financial, emotional, and physical needs are met; I am free to follow my inspiration in joy and bliss.” This may sound like a re-packaging of the power of affirmation – “Gosh darn it, people like me.” The difference is that we’ve done the karmic excavation to remove anything that holds us back from existing at the vibrational level necessary to create from our heart’s desire.
As I see it, we’re embarking on a truly limitless adventure of pure potential. Ladies and gentlemen, please take your thrones, we’re about to take off!
Mary Hogan
Facilitator, Trinity Energy Progression™
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Just look at it
Whatever happens to be bothering you, angering you, troubling you and/or irritating you, just look at it.
I have been going through a very difficult time the last several months. It all started with my Twin Flame walking out; that is, leaving his body and a new soul entering. I was upset about it at first as well as sad, angry, and confused. Over time, I have slowly forgotten many memories I have had of him because I am willing to accept, for the most part, that he isn’t here (incarnate) anymore. It’s actually been quite alleviating, in the long run. He was my goal for a long time. Well, only about 4 years; but that feels like a long time to be suffering, chasing, and running the way I was. Apparently I had cords with him that caused me to need/want to be with him romantically. Luckily, the new soul that walked in helped me break that cord. So, the Twin Flame issues are over, for the most part. I still miss him and flinch a little when there is something that reminds me of him; but I am clearing that.
The biggest issue I have been having is a physical sensitivity issue. Suicide has not been far from my mind since mid-October, 2014. Since that time, my body has become more and more uncomfortable each week. Just skin touching other parts of my skin, especially when it involves any of my skin folds, is excruciating. I can barely bring myself to wear bras. This means I can’t go out dancing or rock climbing, or any of the things I would otherwise do because it would cause pain (such as boobies bashing around from not wearing a bra; or wearing one and being in excruciating discomfort the whole time). This has also caused me to not be able to work out because I have to wear two bras, which is extra uncomfortable. This has made the problem to worse, as I have gained weight. I have started working out again, but it will take some time to get back to where I was body shape-wise.
I had, for a time, lost faith in Trinity as well; or perhaps it’s really I lost faith in myself. I still have the other sensitivity issue with sound that I have yet to let go of. Why would this be any different?
I can’t say for sure why this is happening, but I’m resisting so hard. Or, at least I was. Many fears, many ego-driven emotions are driving this resistance. But, just my unwillingness to look at it was making it far worse. I didn’t want to let go of that part of me that pitied myself. I didn’t want to stop loathing myself. For whatever reason I wouldn’t stop, I cannot say why. I think it’s because it’s an addiction; it has been a huge part of my identity for a very long time. I have no idea who I am without it. It was also clear I didn’t want to look internally as I wasn’t reaching out for support. I knew that just talking with any of my Trinity family about it would quickly break or shatter any walls I had put up to keep that identity. I didn’t want to take responsibility that I was causing it all; and I still am.
With the help of a dear friend and Trinity Energy Progression™ Brother, every excuse I had, to not look at this issue, was quickly shattered. It was like a thin layer of ice breaking into a beautiful symphony of delicate pieces, all destined to hit the ground and melt away. I knew this. I damn well knew that my walls were flimsy and silly. I am grateful that I am able to look at the issues, or at least look at the issues that prevented me from looking at my sensitivity issue. I guess that’s the first step, eh? *face palm*
I have yet to release either sensitivity issue (skin and sound); but, if I can accept that I may never be able to, I can at least change my reaction to them. This has been the hardest thing I have ever had to face. It’s one thing for me to face an emotion. That is cake! I just have an emotional poop for…. say thirty seconds to a few minutes at the most; then I’m done. Even physical pain, I can tolerate to the point where I can work on it and go into Trinity to release it (or whatever is causing it).
This pain is different. It’s like…. it’s very hard to describe to someone that does not experience it. Do you know the sound of “nails on a chalk board”? You know how there is no actual physical pain, but it still hurts, somehow? Now, imagine that pain happens in your head … whenever you see or hear one of those things that I am sensitive to, such as someone popping gum, chewing with their mouth open, or even just tapping their feet, etc.
Those sounds haven’t been so bad to deal with. I just simply avoid crowded areas or walk or move away. I might even cover my ears or eyes. I can at least stop that pain. This new irritation is just from skin touching skin. It’s if someone was tickling you with tiny blades of grass and you were never able to scratch it; then add an element of pain in there.
My new development on this issue is that if I can’t figure out how to release it, I can at least release my reaction to it. It still hurts, it still causes discomfort; but I have been able to lessen my anger and frustration. I am trying my best to be grateful for that feeling, and experiencing it. It helps for a time. It seems to come back after an hour or so.
Anyway, my point to this is that ……. just look at it. Whatever it is; if you have a problem, it is best not to run from it. Because first off, you really can’t run from it. It will still be there; and second, you can’t and won’t change any of it if you don’t just look at it. More than likely, you’re making “it” (whatever “it” is to you) out to be much worse than it really is. If you can’t change the problem, at least change the way you react to it. Release everything that would cause you to have a negative reaction to it or fear looking it. Just, take baby steps.
With LOVE,
Ashley Warren
Facilitator, Trinity Energy Progression
Up From the Ashes
“Whether we remain the ash or become the phoenix is up to us.” ~ Ming-Dao Deng
I lay in bed that morning, languishing somewhere between waking and dreaming. This particular morning felt much different than all the others as I tried to navigate through the fog that was my mind. Even though I was just waking up for the day, I felt exhausted. It was the kind of tiredness that permeated every particle and fiber of my being. I somehow felt as if my spirit, my everlasting soul, the essence of who I know myself to be, was in the process of leaving my body, for the last time. My first thought was of my children. In that brief moment of quiet reflection, I decided that together they would be alright in the world without me. In desperation, I summoned my spiritual guides and angels, requesting their much needed help. I felt as though I no longer had the will, or the strength to carry on. Before I drifted back off to sleep, my last conscious thought was declaring to myself, “I surrender.”
After more than fifty years in this body, enduring childhood abuse, domestic violence, neglect, poverty, and ultimately trying to work through all of it in therapy, I had never surrendered before, I had never entirely given up – on me. A survivor, a fighter, it had always gone against my nature to admit that perhaps I could not count on myself any longer. It felt as if all of the suffering and pain had finally taken its toll. In what seemed like my darkest hour, I came to the realization that something would have to be different. I could no longer survive in the world like this.
Living most of my life in a deep state of denial, I thought about the words someone dear to me once said, “…once denial is broken, you can never go back.” I looked upon this vivid, yet surreal experience and felt such gratitude and at the same time, a deep sense of sadness that this is how it would end. The death grip I’d had on life was slipping, I could no longer hold on. I found myself in a place I had heard about but had never personally experienced. A place where one arrives, perhaps not knowing how they came to be there. A place one can only access after letting go of absolutely everything else.
My expectation was that I would drift off to sleep and not wake up. That somehow I would continue to depart my body and my spirit would exit this earthly existence.
What happened next was quite a surprise to me. As soon as I chose to surrender and let go, I heard a voice inside me say, “It’s not your time.” No words can express the relief and freedom I felt in that moment. Not only did I recognize that I was not alone, I knew from that point forward, my life would never be the same again. It was such a life changing and deeply freeing experience to finally, finally know that even when I was at my lowest point, I am not alone – I am – always here, in this eternal Now!
Tammy Taylor
Facilitator, Trinity Energy Progression
Unclogging, Letting Go of the $*@! for 2015 (and Letting In the Magic)
:::PHEW:::
Every moment… every day… every week… every month… and every YEAR leads up to the next cumulative step in our individual and collective progress. Somewhere in 2014 we hit the uptick in the exponential curve for transforming, and the speed of our shifting has just gone off the charts in the past several months!
For the end of our 2014 calendar year… I was doing a lot of what in energy healing we call “infrastructure work”… meaning, a lot of clearing at the collective/oversoul levels. And I found that for some reason, the “tipoff” would come in the form of repetition via my clients, friends… and more and more, something that would manifest with ME, in MY life. It kept on getting bigger and bigger… and I was getting more and more irritated that these “hiccups” were manifesting as such in the 3D. Why, suddenly, had my flow “gone bad”? I would have worked on and cleared the hiccup and would be fine again for a few days… flowing along… and then BANG! The next one came up. And, as we got closer and closer to the end of the calendar year, it was getting more and MORE (vs. less and less) intense. I was getting SO irritated…
A few days before New Year’s Eve, in my house, we noticed we were having some odd plumbing issues. Part of what I’d taken on was recognizing something immediately… so it wouldn’t escalate. We had a plumber come out the day before New Year’s, and snaked the house. The downstairs was fine… the upstairs was still slow. The plumber suggested we try something to help with the upstairs that wold be an “easy fix.” So, the morning of New Year’s, up to the roof my husband went.
Next thing I knew, the toilets downstairs were flooded again. My husband – who was getting abnormally agitated by this – felt that our septic tank must be full. He called the plumber back, who agreed…and though they had a booked schedule… their emptying crew was actually just up the road from our house, so they fit us in, and they were at my house within 15 minutes (so I knew I was ALMOST THERE, if the “remedy” in the 3D was that available). At the same time, a friend of mine with whom I’m very paralleled energetically texted me to tell me that SHE was having some sort of crisis. I was at my wit’s end; I was tired and EXTREMELY frustrated at one thing after another coming up to “hold me back”… physically and/or financially!!! This was SO unusual for me… and it was such an anomaly, all throughout the season, that I was REALLY getting angry about the whole thing! I would ask if it were me, and would get NO… I would ask if it were my kids or pets, and I would get NO… I would ask if it were my husband, and I would get a undefined sort of thing… which caused my ego to want to project it on to him! My husband – an adept practitioner himself – was in the same place of frustration, of clearing, clearing, clearing… and didn’t feel like he’d missed anything.
So, my friend and I decided to do an impromptu share together (a share is when we get together to do energy work with each other), on Skype. I’d started crying; and yet, the tears felt MUCH BIGGER than just me. As is usual with the two of us, we always set the intention to do the healing at the highest related oversoul level… releasing the lesson, and whatever the cause of the individual manifestation was.
It’s funny to note that JUST when we started, the septic people had just gotten to my house, and I could hear the hum of what I called the “septic sucker” outside of my home office window… how the physical completely manifests from the non-physical…
When we started, I immediately saw my husband and I, with our arms around each other, standing at and looking over the edge of this huge pool – let’s call it an ocean – of s**t. Yes, there was some of ours… but I understood it was actually representative of ALL of us (of course… right to the collective/oversoul). A huge, huge, overwhelming , core sadness came over me, and the tears just started flowing. I was sobbing… and all I heard, at the higher level, was, “We define ourselves by this.” So much sadness to let it go… so much fear of losing our identity, of what we felt we’d accomplished. The light just turned up and up… and the thought at the higher consciousness was, “But it’s time to LET IT GO.” The remembrance was that we HAD to let go of it ALL – all of the muck (a somewhat nicer word for it LOL) – to move into the “next phase,” into the ascended world, “Earth 2.0,” and “Universe 2.0.” We wouldn’t move forward, individually or collectively, until we did.
Lots and lots and LOTS of tears, SUCH a huge, overwhelming feeling of loss!
And yet… I could see the even higher perspective. The “muck”…the “s***t”…the darkness, or whatever you want to call it – is everything separation. OF COURSE it defines us… because definition comes from experience of duality/separation itself! So, we added in there whatever was needed for us to remember that… and to release it. I saw threads of light break through the ocean, which turned out to be more like rock-solid ickiness; as we continued releasing, the light broke through more and more, the “pieces” broke up…or rather, simply became “reincorporated” into the light, since they were all a part of the illusion. Then, at some point, I saw a huge net of light encompass the entire hugeness of it… and understand it was all being processed, all being incorporated into our “Akashic Records” for complete resolution… and then it began to disappear.
By the end of our two sessions (we call them “Part 1” and “Part 2”), there had been a HUGE shift; a HUGE heaviness had left me, with only remnants to resolve and release. What a GREAT way to end one phase and start another (whether you want to call it a “new year” – connected to the illusion of our 3D – or simply a “new phase”)!
Even funnier… that the “septic sucker” finished almost immediately after we did! I found out later that, because it had been so long since the septic had been emptied (let’s just say it was WAYYY past overdue), they’d showed my husband that there had been a layer of hardened matter on the top that was about two feet thick – ewww, and how completely related to what I’d seen “out there” – and they had to do some work to break it up to get it to go.
Click on the picture above to watch the full recording!
Both of us felt a huge relief (though I will note that it was VERY FUNNY that my friend had to have a plumber go out to HER house on New Year’s Day – covered under a warranty – to snake HER plumbing… so obviously, residual clearing). After that… there were clearings for both of us to release that which causes us to take on the responsibility to do releasing work for the collective/oversouls, and to have to manifest that into our own realities as reflection so we’d see it (no more of THAT)! And there was actually a bunch of other cleanup work for us to do with ourselves… but WOW… what an AMAZING start to the next phase! This was completely reinforced by the AMAZING 5-hour online marathon we did on New Year’s Day on “The Ascended World: 2015 Spiritual/Metaphysical Kickoff”… so much flow, so much shining of the light gathered for that 5 hours! (If you missed it live, you can watch the recording, with speakers, topics, and time stamps posted, here.)
There have been a standing toilet jokes with the Trinity instructors who took class in Mt. Shasta with me in 2014; it started when we ran out of toilet paper at the place where all the students stayed… and it’s held on through the rest of the year, because it seemed that during several classes I taught – all in different locations – we would run out of toilet paper in the middle of class! Letting go… letting go… and we’ve been getting the message for at least six months!
Day 3 into this “freedom from the ocean of muck,” wow… what a difference! The past few days have begun to feel lighter and lighter, and MUCH different than the typical 3D “new year”! In letting all of that muck go… it’s a whole new world, a whole new Universe, without all of that holding us down… or holding us back.
So… SOAR forward, clean and free! NOW, the fun and the magic REALLY begin!
Much, much love, LIGHT, and FUN,
Angela Coulter
Originator, Trinity Energy Progression
The Gift of Consciousness…Now and Beyond the Holiday Season
As I’ve spent a lot of time culling down my practices and focus areas over the end-of-year holidays… I tend to really love them, from both the 3D and the higher consciousness levels.
However, unexpectedly, this holiday season has been pretty challenging for me, and for awhile, I hadn’t received the conscious understanding as to why that was. It made no sense; overall; this year has been stupendous, lots of fun, lots of flow, lots of growth… and I figured I would just transition easily and effortlessly into an enjoyable holiday season.
For awhile, I couldn’t figure out why that wasn’t so.
I’ve done all of this energetic healing around abundance, around letting go of the past we tend to hold on to during the end-of-year holidays, since we tend to abide so tightly to tradition, ceremony, and rituals. We’ve culled our holiday decorations in our house, we’ve gotten new ones… and started some new traditions. The last several years have been phenomenal! However… from the beginning, I just couldn’t get myself to engage in the season this year.
Simultaneously, we’ve just been going through bigger and bigger metaphysical doorways of transition, growth, and HUGE expansion. That’s been GREAT… and yet, it started to trip me up around the end of November. I realize that my situations are far from being as challenging as many others, and I also realize I do a lot of energetic work at the “infrastructure” levels – oversouls/collectives/etc. that sometimes cause a “heavier flow” energetically, if only very temporarily.
While continuously releasing, expanding, and evolving on that front, I noticed more and more friction and irritation inside of me around the holidays, around some of the most minute things: so much I was observing in the interactions of others felt contrived; I noticed I had very little patience for holiday music, noticing that the entire season is generally built off of about 20 songs (and their hundreds of renditions); even unhappiness with the beautiful and simple tree we chose to bring home and decorate. During a season when I typically feel SO in the flow of it… I felt nothing, and actually, a little bit lost! And I pondered about that… while also noticing that the flow had slowed down quite a bit. In fact, there were many unusual “stop and go” moments throughout that felt like I was riding in a stick shift car with a screwed up clutch! I was having a challenging time synching up my spiritual self and my 3D self… and that alone frustrated me.
The realization came together for me early this week (just in time LOL)… and now, looking back on the eve of the season, I do remember hearing Jeshua’s voice when I first noticed this, telling me all that matters is simply the way that I LIVE now. I sort of brushed that comment aside. I should’ve known better (being that it’s Jeshua LOL) and looked at it from this perspective earlier!
In the past years, I’ve shifted to a place far more centered from a place of love… all year round. I connect with others from the heart, and those with whom I’m drawn to connect are those I feel guided to have in my life. Whether I speak with someone once during the year or daily, whether I interact with them on social media or in person… if they’re there, it’s because my HEART knows they belong there; we serve a purpose in each other’s realities in some way. If we’re not… then we’re not. There’s no regrets; there are many with whom I have a connection that doesn’t necessitate our regular connection here in the 3D… though they’re just as important as others, just in a different way. There are others with whom I’ve fulfilled our interaction “agreements”… and we are free to go along our separate individual journeys. Again… I still have a huge amount of gratitude and love I have for them…this includes friends and biological family alike!! I also allow relationships to exist outside of any predetermined box, vs. based on 3D’s societal expectations – whatever they look like, and however it serves us as the involved parties is PERFECT as we choose for our journeys.
It’s SO freeing and pure to be able to live this way!
However, this year, I’ve noticed the feeling, which I realize now has been largely from the collective level – which exacerbated the volume of it in my consciousness – that though there are many who do truly love the holidays for the connection to others, there’s far more of the collective creating the constant energy of frenetic obligation. So often, we spend so much time focusing on – and often fretting over – who we “have to” get gifts for, how much money we have (or don’t have) to spend, who we “have to” see, what we “have to” do… that on a larger level, so many speed through the holidays to finish off the checklist and get to the finish line! We’ve forgotten the real reason for the season, which is love in the highest vibration… Divine, unconditional love.
With Divine love, it just IS. We just ARE. This is all that is needed, except that remembrance, and that PRACTICE!
Often, even when we profess to be the MOST focused on that via our practices (often within a belief system) we tend to be held up in rituals and ceremony of obligation… vs. acting from the heart. There are many, many lessons for releasing the ego embedded in all of this! So often, one does a “good deed” largely for the purpose of telling others about the good deed (thus, proving value as a “good person”), vs. just because of guidance from the heart, without needing external validation. So many activities, so many practices are carried out because that’s what’s been passed down or influenced by others… without the individual considering if it’s truly heart felt, or just going through the moves. So many turn the season into a “keeping up with the Joneses” or making someone else happy for the sake of proving “what a good person they are” vs. just doing what feels right.
Time to change all of that!
What I realize I was feeling was a great incongruency between who I am now and what I do from the heart, without the additional need to “package it in a box” the way the season tends to be dictated in our 3D world. Though I’ve changed much of that, and have been living it this year more purely than ever before, at some level I felt like I needed to fit myself back into “the box” – no matter how subtly – to fulfill a certain role and practice during the season. It was THAT feeling – the collective reflecting back to me the amplification of whatever crumbs were left of that box within – that was causing such a disconnection (and in some cases, outright friction/resistance).
When we remember how to exist from that place of Divine love, for the Self and all around us, we simply hold our relationships and our Earth experience in the utmost gratitude and acceptance of the perfection of everything… regardless of what it “looks like” to others. When we start living that way day to day, a feeling of joviality and happiness is an everyday occurrence… and we incorporate that into all parts of our lives, all the time, all year round. We become more open and free about our love and joy, and therefore, the need to package it in a box simply goes away… because it becomes Christmas (or fill in the blank with your related holiday) EVERY day. And it just gets better and better! So, start today… honor yourself and those you love with the truest, purist you that you can be, and make EVERY day a holiday! 😉
Much, much love to you and yours this season and ALWAYS… and namaste,
Angela Coulter
Originator, Trinity Energy Progression
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