Every day, I made choices about who and what I was and how I felt and thought about who and what I was. Did I even realize I was choosing? Nine times out of ten, no I didn’t… until recently, when I chose to start noticing. I made a conscious decision to reclaim my decisions. I realized I was feasting at the banquet of their consequences, so why should I remain unconscious of making them? I saw myself hoping things would turn out like I wanted or wishing things were different. Totally giving my power of creation away to anyone or anything slightly more focused than myself. Yuck and gross!
This refocus allowed me to really see just how many decisions, creations, I made – or not – each day. I was speechless and sad at how small I saw myself that I wasn’t even willing to step up and claim my own well being through choices. Everything is a choice. EVERYTHING. I now exert MY choices on MY life. I now choose to sleep well and wake up refreshed no matter how many minutes my eyes were closed. I now choose to be dis-ease and pain free. I now choose to honor and respect all of myself. I believe that is the true nature of the phrase I Am. I choose all that I am.
I think this is the most valuable gift you can offer someone – the power of choice. I used to believe I was a progressive mother in teaching my now adult children how to manage life. But I was falling so short in teaching them how to empower themselves through their choices. It is the same for family and friends. It is empowerment through choices instead of rescues and shelter. I overheard a friend explain how yoga becomes easy when you “stack the bones.” The balance is just there. I believe the same is true with choices! Your choices become the bones… and the rest aligns with them. So see with what your choices are aligning!
“…If you choose not to decide, you still have made a choice…”
-Freewill, by Rush 1980
Sarah Sieg Avignone
Trinity Energy Progression Facilitator/Practitioner
At some point I became aware that upon waking, there would be times when I would hear music playing in my head, like a pre-recorded broadcast that had started without me. How long had this been going on I wondered? There was no quiet or peace like I would expect to have after waking from a night’s rest. Like a constant DJ, all types of random music played in my head. The funny thing I noticed though was that once I heard it, barely aware enough to recognize the song, the music would stop. Perplexed, I then asked myself, is it a radio signal that I am picking up from somewhere? Either that or perhaps my subconscious mind was busy running the show; it surely wasn’t a conscious choice on my part. Yet that made no sense to me at all.
Often, I would wake up in the morning with my first thought being, “who picked that song”? And then as soon as I had that thought, I could no longer hear the song, as if someone had turned off the station or turned down the volume. I then entertained the idea that if I wasn’t consciously choosing the music, then maybe my job was really to be the observer. You know the one that stands off to the side watching everything unfold.
As I explored these arbitrary episodes I was experiencing, I discovered that in physics, there’s something called the “observer effect”. The act of observing, in itself, changes whatever it is that you’re observing. Simply stated, it refers to “changes that the act of observation will make on the phenomenon being observed”. In other words, once I became aware of the music, it would soon stop. It’s almost as if I had to sneak up on it in a way to be able to even detect it at all. Once I discovered this, I had to ask myself, “What else is going on that I may not be aware of, much less observe”. It also made me wonder, “Do you hear this too?” Or, am I the only one with the internal radio playing the top 40.
I have spent a great deal of time learning how to be still, how to quiet my mind, how to distract myself enough to let it all go. Nevertheless, there were still many times I would wake up to a song playing in my head, even after becoming aware enough to be the observer of it. Irecognize it now as another level of consciousness, always there playing music. I’ve learned to use Trinity Energy Progression™ to raise my level of awareness and my level of consciousness above the incessant noise so that I am no longer bombarded with random music playing in my mind.
Facilitator, Trinity Energy Progression