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Trepidation or Trust?
I recently woke up with the word trepidation in my head and thoughts.
Trepidation – Noun: a feeling of fear or agitation about something that may happen:
Trust – Noun: confident expectation of something
I realized trepidation has been an enormous word in my life. It has so many connections to so many things going on. I recently had to go to Florida to have my Mom tested for declining mental capacity. It was a daunting task and I was really worried about the outcome. Then it occurred to me that there were a lot of situations in my life that this also applies to.
Mom
My spiritual journey
My personal life
My financial situation
All of the unknowns I tend to worry about
All of these situations have had trepidation involved for me. I can say that all of the self-work and my spiritual journey have made things a lot less troublesome and scary in my life. I have been opening myself up to Trust and it has become an even more amazing journey.
I have been drawn, pushed or shoved – not always by choice – to take classes even when I did not know why or what I would do after taking them. Afterward, I’ve had issues with why I did and what I should be doing with them, not meeting expectations of whomever (mostly myself). I’ve come to realize over the last year or so, with help and gentle guidance from several soul family members and spiritual guides, to try not to have expectations of what I should be doing but rather take in all of the tools I have been gifted and move myself further on my journey. To Trust!!! I feel that each class I have taken and every person with whom I have come in contact along this journey has been instrumental in opening doors that I didn’t even know existed. Even though I currently don’t practice on others or teach any of the modalities I’ve learned over the last several years, that doesn’t mean that I haven’t benefited or grown from them. Not sure where this journey will lead me next… but I’m certain it will be even more amazing than it already is!
I am learning to trust myself in ways that I never thought I would. It has been a slow process but I’m gaining confidence. Letting go of my story has been one of the biggest stumbling blocks, and I have worked very consistently to get past it all. Still have a ways to go, but I’m gaining personal and spiritual growth and trust along the way. This spiritual journey has been amazing, and I’ve begun to allow it to steer me in the direction I am supposed to go. I am happier now than I have been in a very long time! A lot less trepidation…and a lot more trust in my life.
Before leaving for Florida, I put together a creation statement for my mom, my family and myself – if all of the higher selves will accept it, “that everything comes together for my Mom and my family in the way it is supposed to be in the easiest and best way for all and that all of the issues that my family will face also be for our highest and best with grace and ease, love and harmony…” I meditated, sent unconditional love to myself and to all involved. My thoughts then were that everything would be okay and will unfold as they should with grace and ease and harmony and love and joy, without distress and pain to any of us. With this process I moved from trepidation to trust. I allowed myself to trust. The outcome has been amazing.
With love and trust may we all continue to move forward with our Journeys.
Bonnie Butler
Trinity Energy Progression Facilitator/Practitioner
I Am
I am the Wholeness
The All, the One.
I am the Goddess
And God within.
I am Sophia,
Lilith, Magdalene.
I am eternal
And always have been.
I am Isis,
Pélé, Kali.
I am that am
And ever will be.
I am Jesus,
Buddha, Brahman.
I am the light,
The dark and between.
I am life,
Love, energy.
I am!
Mary Hogan
Trinity Energy Progression Facilitator/Practitioner
Time for the “L” Word… (Ready for REAL Progression?)
Lord Voldemort image from imgkid.com, giova94
Lucifer, that is. Yep… that’s right. “He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named,” I guess some would say (outside of the Harry Potter world, LOL)… ESPECIALLY in spiritual circles!
Did that make you squirm? It’s DEFINITELY something to look at, then…
It’s quite an interesting observation that so, so many who consider themselves “lightworkers” never, ever, EVER align or connect themselves in any way to what we’ve created as the personification of darkness. So many claim to have ALWAYS been a “lightworker,” ALWAYS helped other people, ALWAYS been a healer. in ALL of their many, many lives… you get the idea.
Let me interject here, first, on this topic alone… because I’m calling it. Not so!
It’s actually rather limiting (and simply convenient to the judgement-based ego) to only ever want to look at the “light” side of ourselves. We did, as the Divine expressing ourselves individually, create the perception of separation. What we consider darkness is simply different levels of separation; the darker something is considered, the more based in separation the energy of it is. All of the energies of separation – also, all of the energies and emotions of the ego – are also a part of what we consider the darkness. Resistance, fear, anxiety, regret, resentment, guilt, doubt, sorrow, pain, anger/rage, shame… anything that has anything but the complete energy of Oneness is based in separation. And, the more extreme, the more “dark” we consider it. So the “darkness” and every part of those emotions/energies… are one and the same. And we’ve carried them out in every which way, whether a little or a lot.
It’s so, so easy for us to say, “I’m the embodiment of _______” – whether it’s the Divine Mother, Archangel Raphael, Ascended Master St. Germain (or countless others) – and in that, we typically stop the searching for our experience. However, these are also masks behind which we hide… even the brightest, most enlightened individuals in existence. Because, by the way… it is my understanding that anything with an individual identity has an ego… and it is also my understanding that the ego was created to explore individuality and separation.
Why would we have created an entire existence of the perception of separation – the infinite, Divine beings that we are – without exploring it to all depths, all possibilities?
We’ve ALL explored, ALL of it.
Our traditional stance on “the battle of good vs. evil,” in the energy of fighting/resistance – simply creates more separation… and darkness… and simply perpetuates its existence. It’s time to remember that in the perception of separation that we created, we created the darkness, and it’s that part of ourselves (often called Shadow Work in spiritual circles) that it’s most, MOST important to look at straight on, accept… and LOVE, if we’re really ready to dissolve it once and for all.
Enter Lucifer. Or, rather, as I call him as I’ve experienced, Archangel Lucifer.
Image from TheGoldenAgeofAquarius.com
My active discovery, acceptance, and discussion of this topic – and the representation of this persona – started in a really, really unexpected way. Years ago, I was listening to a series of guided meditations that were put out by a group of lightworkers focused on helping all raise the vibration of the Earth for this “next phase.” I resonated with some of their meditations… I didn’t with some others. They had one called “The Resolution of Darkness”, and my guidance was to go through that particular one. So, I put my headphones on… and the guiding of the meditation took the participant to a cave, in which there was a burdened archangel in the darkness; one who had volunteered to take on the personification of the darkness, to be the reminder of what we have ALL created within ourselves, in creating ourselves. It’s been a huge job… and he was tired. The guided meditation went on – surprisingly, at the time – to thank Archangel Lucifer for taking on that role, and to release him of this duty, to bask in the light again.
Even more surprisingly – midway through this, I started sobbing uncontrollably. I felt this down to my very core… the gratitude, the love, and the wonderment of taking on the externalization of that which we have conveniently repressed away inside of ourselves.
What a healing that was!
Fast forward, a few years later, after I had been gifted with the remembrance of this amazing practice of Trinity Energy Progression™ – coming back to the remembrance of our Divine Self – to pass on and help with the resolution of duality, separation, and externalization of the Divine. This was well underway. I was contentedly on my way to acupuncture one morning, looking forward to my “out there” time on the table. I was sitting at a traffic light on the way to my acupuncturist’s office, when I heard the voice of my Higher Self say to me, “Call upon Archangel Lucifer, and ask to do a Trinity session with him.”
My first response to that was, “Say, WHAT?”
I listened for more… but all I heard was the repeat of the pretty solid direction from the Higher Consciousness. So, I tried it on for size – and then “put it on the shelf” as I continued on. I tried to just let that go.
When I was on the acupuncture table, on my “way out” (trying to ignore the request), the voice came in even louder and more insistent.
And so I did.
I remember asking permission, asking if we could do such a session in Divine Consciousness. And, though I felt what for lack of a better word felt like a little hesitation, I did get acquiescence. I remember the session… and the melding… and it was the equivalent of feeling like I was literally weighed down with tons of weights underneath craggy, hard, cold rock. And yet, once we were “there,” even with the heaviness, we became one in the light… and as the light was “turned up,” it felt like an innumerable number of rivers of light started flowing through the rock, first in little veins, and then expanding throughout, even if it was still a bit heavy. The amazing part: At the end of this, when I was guided to stop, I felt a wave of gratitude, coming from and to me!
Shortly after this experience, I was guided to do the same a number of times, and each time, it became easier and easier, brighter and brighter.
At some point, I started “seeing” Archangel Lucifer in “light form” on occasion. In fact, there have been a handful of times that this persona has shown himself to me – in his light form – in the middle of a session, typically when a client if ready, willing, and able to look at and finally embrace/love even the darkest depths of themselves. He has explained in these sessions the purpose of the creation of “the darkness,” and separation – and how with that, we’ve created feelings, textures, colors (like the prism), everything we’ve loved experiencing through this existence. To me, he has also become the representation of the acceptance of the whole – the Oneness – regardless of what that looks like. ALL is within the Light; ALL is part of the Divine.
I know some of the most light-emanating individuals who have discovered in their self-focused development a very personal, historical relationship with Lucifer (from very different levels of consciousness)… and, though typically starting out as a VERY heavy realization, it has allowed them the core of some of their MOST accelerated spiritual growth!
Melek Ta’us, the Peacock Angel
If we look around, there are some interesting personifications of the resolution of the darkness. Not too long ago, in discussing this experience in a class I was teaching, I was provided with a reminder of the persona of Melek Ta’us (pictured here, with a name translated as the “Peacock Angel”); a prominent deity of the Yazidi pantheon. He is considered to be the redeemed/forgiven Lucifer.The story is that he cried and collected his tears for 7,000 years, and the tears were used to douse the fires of hell.
There is SO much more to share here… when you look closely throughout history, we have embedded within much of our mythology (including that within all belief systems) hints that this vital remembrance is crucial to our progresion, ascension… or whatever you want to call it. I’ll save that discussion for another day…
The point is this: As in Harry Potter… the fear of anything ebbs when we look at it and accept it straight on. Say the name out loud; remember that Archangel Lucifer is actually “He Who MUST Be Named” – accepting the whole of ourselves – as a part of our ascension, and include just as much gratitude for this persona in the collection of those we’ve created for the whole of this experience! If there’s resistance and judgment on that… well, then you know what’s to be focused on within YOU. Because, when we begin to REALLY “walk the walk,” and TRULY live in the remembrance that we are all One, we are ALL Light and love – even the darkest parts of us and what we’ve created – we remember that we’re ALL just as connected with and a part of Lucifer as with Jeshua or any of the other personifications of pure, Divine Consciousness… and it’s time for us to remember, accept, and love that WHOLE within ourselves, so we can “game up”!
Much love and many hugs,
Angela Coulter
Originator, Trinity Energy Progression
Law of Attraction in Action
I wrote a personal blog entry some time ago titled “I Believe”. In that particular piece I was sharing my feelings and thoughts on the things that I believe make life extraordinary. I felt compelled to write it because I had been reflecting on how very special specific experiences can be, especially those involving other people. One of the lines I wrote was “I believe in holding hands, giving hugs, and soft, sweet butterfly kisses.” What made this so interesting is that a few days after I had written that, I had the following experience.
A colleague and dear friend of mine stopped by my work place to say hello. As I was walking down the hallway back to my office I hear this familiar voice yelling “Tam-may”. I instantly recognized the sound of her voice and quickly turned to see my friend smiling and glowing as if she’d just won the lottery. There she is, arms outstretched ready to hug me as we always do when we see each other a few times during the year. How quickly time goes by and too often we don’t notice until we are reminded once more that we’ve missed seeing someone dear to us.
After our hug, not wasting any time, she quickly took my hand and led me down the hallway of the department, passing all the offices of my colleagues, out into the exterior lobby of the building. As I was experiencing holding my friend’s hand, I was witnessing everything happening as if it was an “out-of-body” experience. As I watched, perched above as the omniscient being that I am, I noticed the nervousness in my body. After all, typically I’m not one to participate in public displays of affection. I tend to be more private, although I must admit it felt wonderful to share in this experience with her. As we exited the lobby we rounded the corner to find two of her co-workers waiting for the elevator. She quickly introduces us, all the while holding my hand and smiling from her heart. As the elevator arrived, my friend hugged me again and as she did, I felt the softness of her eyelashes brush across my cheek.
The next morning I took some time to reflect on that experience with my friend and remembered what I had written less than two weeks before, which was ….. “I believe in holding hands, giving hugs, and soft, sweet butterfly kisses.” I was amazed at how all of it had unfolded just as I had written it to be. Shortly after my realization of this manifestation, my friend stopped by to see me again. I recounted this story to her in detail, explaining how she had been an active participant in my manifestation of the words I had written. She sat there beaming as she listened to how everything had unfolded. As I’m sharing the story with her I say to her, you know, this is just what pure love feels like, isn’t it? She nodded her head in agreement that what we feel towards each other is nothing less than that. We then talked about how it’s always been that way between us, since the first time we met more than fifteen years ago. People used to look at us and comment, not understanding what we might share in common. But we knew what was there for us, somehow we have known all along. It’s pure, unconditional love.
If there is an intention in sharing this story with you it is this; to let you see through this experience how the universe unfolds in such a magnificent way when we allow the law of attraction to deliver to us whatever it is that we’ve asked for. This is not the first experience that I have had like this; it’s one of many that I observe on a regular basis in my life. I am grateful to have this awareness, and appreciate what can feel like magic in my life every day.
Tammy Taylor
Facilitator, Trinity Energy Progression™
D5 Creation