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Just look at it
Whatever happens to be bothering you, angering you, troubling you and/or irritating you, just look at it.
I have been going through a very difficult time the last several months. It all started with my Twin Flame walking out; that is, leaving his body and a new soul entering. I was upset about it at first as well as sad, angry, and confused. Over time, I have slowly forgotten many memories I have had of him because I am willing to accept, for the most part, that he isn’t here (incarnate) anymore. It’s actually been quite alleviating, in the long run. He was my goal for a long time. Well, only about 4 years; but that feels like a long time to be suffering, chasing, and running the way I was. Apparently I had cords with him that caused me to need/want to be with him romantically. Luckily, the new soul that walked in helped me break that cord. So, the Twin Flame issues are over, for the most part. I still miss him and flinch a little when there is something that reminds me of him; but I am clearing that.
The biggest issue I have been having is a physical sensitivity issue. Suicide has not been far from my mind since mid-October, 2014. Since that time, my body has become more and more uncomfortable each week. Just skin touching other parts of my skin, especially when it involves any of my skin folds, is excruciating. I can barely bring myself to wear bras. This means I can’t go out dancing or rock climbing, or any of the things I would otherwise do because it would cause pain (such as boobies bashing around from not wearing a bra; or wearing one and being in excruciating discomfort the whole time). This has also caused me to not be able to work out because I have to wear two bras, which is extra uncomfortable. This has made the problem to worse, as I have gained weight. I have started working out again, but it will take some time to get back to where I was body shape-wise.
I had, for a time, lost faith in Trinity as well; or perhaps it’s really I lost faith in myself. I still have the other sensitivity issue with sound that I have yet to let go of. Why would this be any different?
I can’t say for sure why this is happening, but I’m resisting so hard. Or, at least I was. Many fears, many ego-driven emotions are driving this resistance. But, just my unwillingness to look at it was making it far worse. I didn’t want to let go of that part of me that pitied myself. I didn’t want to stop loathing myself. For whatever reason I wouldn’t stop, I cannot say why. I think it’s because it’s an addiction; it has been a huge part of my identity for a very long time. I have no idea who I am without it. It was also clear I didn’t want to look internally as I wasn’t reaching out for support. I knew that just talking with any of my Trinity family about it would quickly break or shatter any walls I had put up to keep that identity. I didn’t want to take responsibility that I was causing it all; and I still am.
With the help of a dear friend and Trinity Energy Progression™ Brother, every excuse I had, to not look at this issue, was quickly shattered. It was like a thin layer of ice breaking into a beautiful symphony of delicate pieces, all destined to hit the ground and melt away. I knew this. I damn well knew that my walls were flimsy and silly. I am grateful that I am able to look at the issues, or at least look at the issues that prevented me from looking at my sensitivity issue. I guess that’s the first step, eh? *face palm*
I have yet to release either sensitivity issue (skin and sound); but, if I can accept that I may never be able to, I can at least change my reaction to them. This has been the hardest thing I have ever had to face. It’s one thing for me to face an emotion. That is cake! I just have an emotional poop for…. say thirty seconds to a few minutes at the most; then I’m done. Even physical pain, I can tolerate to the point where I can work on it and go into Trinity to release it (or whatever is causing it).
This pain is different. It’s like…. it’s very hard to describe to someone that does not experience it. Do you know the sound of “nails on a chalk board”? You know how there is no actual physical pain, but it still hurts, somehow? Now, imagine that pain happens in your head … whenever you see or hear one of those things that I am sensitive to, such as someone popping gum, chewing with their mouth open, or even just tapping their feet, etc.
Those sounds haven’t been so bad to deal with. I just simply avoid crowded areas or walk or move away. I might even cover my ears or eyes. I can at least stop that pain. This new irritation is just from skin touching skin. It’s if someone was tickling you with tiny blades of grass and you were never able to scratch it; then add an element of pain in there.
My new development on this issue is that if I can’t figure out how to release it, I can at least release my reaction to it. It still hurts, it still causes discomfort; but I have been able to lessen my anger and frustration. I am trying my best to be grateful for that feeling, and experiencing it. It helps for a time. It seems to come back after an hour or so.
Anyway, my point to this is that ……. just look at it. Whatever it is; if you have a problem, it is best not to run from it. Because first off, you really can’t run from it. It will still be there; and second, you can’t and won’t change any of it if you don’t just look at it. More than likely, you’re making “it” (whatever “it” is to you) out to be much worse than it really is. If you can’t change the problem, at least change the way you react to it. Release everything that would cause you to have a negative reaction to it or fear looking it. Just, take baby steps.
With LOVE,
Ashley Warren
Facilitator, Trinity Energy Progression
Up From the Ashes
“Whether we remain the ash or become the phoenix is up to us.” ~ Ming-Dao Deng
I lay in bed that morning, languishing somewhere between waking and dreaming. This particular morning felt much different than all the others as I tried to navigate through the fog that was my mind. Even though I was just waking up for the day, I felt exhausted. It was the kind of tiredness that permeated every particle and fiber of my being. I somehow felt as if my spirit, my everlasting soul, the essence of who I know myself to be, was in the process of leaving my body, for the last time. My first thought was of my children. In that brief moment of quiet reflection, I decided that together they would be alright in the world without me. In desperation, I summoned my spiritual guides and angels, requesting their much needed help. I felt as though I no longer had the will, or the strength to carry on. Before I drifted back off to sleep, my last conscious thought was declaring to myself, “I surrender.”
After more than fifty years in this body, enduring childhood abuse, domestic violence, neglect, poverty, and ultimately trying to work through all of it in therapy, I had never surrendered before, I had never entirely given up – on me. A survivor, a fighter, it had always gone against my nature to admit that perhaps I could not count on myself any longer. It felt as if all of the suffering and pain had finally taken its toll. In what seemed like my darkest hour, I came to the realization that something would have to be different. I could no longer survive in the world like this.
Living most of my life in a deep state of denial, I thought about the words someone dear to me once said, “…once denial is broken, you can never go back.” I looked upon this vivid, yet surreal experience and felt such gratitude and at the same time, a deep sense of sadness that this is how it would end. The death grip I’d had on life was slipping, I could no longer hold on. I found myself in a place I had heard about but had never personally experienced. A place where one arrives, perhaps not knowing how they came to be there. A place one can only access after letting go of absolutely everything else.
My expectation was that I would drift off to sleep and not wake up. That somehow I would continue to depart my body and my spirit would exit this earthly existence.
What happened next was quite a surprise to me. As soon as I chose to surrender and let go, I heard a voice inside me say, “It’s not your time.” No words can express the relief and freedom I felt in that moment. Not only did I recognize that I was not alone, I knew from that point forward, my life would never be the same again. It was such a life changing and deeply freeing experience to finally, finally know that even when I was at my lowest point, I am not alone – I am – always here, in this eternal Now!
Tammy Taylor
Facilitator, Trinity Energy Progression
Unclogging, Letting Go of the $*@! for 2015 (and Letting In the Magic)
:::PHEW:::
Every moment… every day… every week… every month… and every YEAR leads up to the next cumulative step in our individual and collective progress. Somewhere in 2014 we hit the uptick in the exponential curve for transforming, and the speed of our shifting has just gone off the charts in the past several months!
For the end of our 2014 calendar year… I was doing a lot of what in energy healing we call “infrastructure work”… meaning, a lot of clearing at the collective/oversoul levels. And I found that for some reason, the “tipoff” would come in the form of repetition via my clients, friends… and more and more, something that would manifest with ME, in MY life. It kept on getting bigger and bigger… and I was getting more and more irritated that these “hiccups” were manifesting as such in the 3D. Why, suddenly, had my flow “gone bad”? I would have worked on and cleared the hiccup and would be fine again for a few days… flowing along… and then BANG! The next one came up. And, as we got closer and closer to the end of the calendar year, it was getting more and MORE (vs. less and less) intense. I was getting SO irritated…
A few days before New Year’s Eve, in my house, we noticed we were having some odd plumbing issues. Part of what I’d taken on was recognizing something immediately… so it wouldn’t escalate. We had a plumber come out the day before New Year’s, and snaked the house. The downstairs was fine… the upstairs was still slow. The plumber suggested we try something to help with the upstairs that wold be an “easy fix.” So, the morning of New Year’s, up to the roof my husband went.
Next thing I knew, the toilets downstairs were flooded again. My husband – who was getting abnormally agitated by this – felt that our septic tank must be full. He called the plumber back, who agreed…and though they had a booked schedule… their emptying crew was actually just up the road from our house, so they fit us in, and they were at my house within 15 minutes (so I knew I was ALMOST THERE, if the “remedy” in the 3D was that available). At the same time, a friend of mine with whom I’m very paralleled energetically texted me to tell me that SHE was having some sort of crisis. I was at my wit’s end; I was tired and EXTREMELY frustrated at one thing after another coming up to “hold me back”… physically and/or financially!!! This was SO unusual for me… and it was such an anomaly, all throughout the season, that I was REALLY getting angry about the whole thing! I would ask if it were me, and would get NO… I would ask if it were my kids or pets, and I would get NO… I would ask if it were my husband, and I would get a undefined sort of thing… which caused my ego to want to project it on to him! My husband – an adept practitioner himself – was in the same place of frustration, of clearing, clearing, clearing… and didn’t feel like he’d missed anything.
So, my friend and I decided to do an impromptu share together (a share is when we get together to do energy work with each other), on Skype. I’d started crying; and yet, the tears felt MUCH BIGGER than just me. As is usual with the two of us, we always set the intention to do the healing at the highest related oversoul level… releasing the lesson, and whatever the cause of the individual manifestation was.
It’s funny to note that JUST when we started, the septic people had just gotten to my house, and I could hear the hum of what I called the “septic sucker” outside of my home office window… how the physical completely manifests from the non-physical…
When we started, I immediately saw my husband and I, with our arms around each other, standing at and looking over the edge of this huge pool – let’s call it an ocean – of s**t. Yes, there was some of ours… but I understood it was actually representative of ALL of us (of course… right to the collective/oversoul). A huge, huge, overwhelming , core sadness came over me, and the tears just started flowing. I was sobbing… and all I heard, at the higher level, was, “We define ourselves by this.” So much sadness to let it go… so much fear of losing our identity, of what we felt we’d accomplished. The light just turned up and up… and the thought at the higher consciousness was, “But it’s time to LET IT GO.” The remembrance was that we HAD to let go of it ALL – all of the muck (a somewhat nicer word for it LOL) – to move into the “next phase,” into the ascended world, “Earth 2.0,” and “Universe 2.0.” We wouldn’t move forward, individually or collectively, until we did.
Lots and lots and LOTS of tears, SUCH a huge, overwhelming feeling of loss!
And yet… I could see the even higher perspective. The “muck”…the “s***t”…the darkness, or whatever you want to call it – is everything separation. OF COURSE it defines us… because definition comes from experience of duality/separation itself! So, we added in there whatever was needed for us to remember that… and to release it. I saw threads of light break through the ocean, which turned out to be more like rock-solid ickiness; as we continued releasing, the light broke through more and more, the “pieces” broke up…or rather, simply became “reincorporated” into the light, since they were all a part of the illusion. Then, at some point, I saw a huge net of light encompass the entire hugeness of it… and understand it was all being processed, all being incorporated into our “Akashic Records” for complete resolution… and then it began to disappear.
By the end of our two sessions (we call them “Part 1” and “Part 2”), there had been a HUGE shift; a HUGE heaviness had left me, with only remnants to resolve and release. What a GREAT way to end one phase and start another (whether you want to call it a “new year” – connected to the illusion of our 3D – or simply a “new phase”)!
Even funnier… that the “septic sucker” finished almost immediately after we did! I found out later that, because it had been so long since the septic had been emptied (let’s just say it was WAYYY past overdue), they’d showed my husband that there had been a layer of hardened matter on the top that was about two feet thick – ewww, and how completely related to what I’d seen “out there” – and they had to do some work to break it up to get it to go.
Click on the picture above to watch the full recording!
Both of us felt a huge relief (though I will note that it was VERY FUNNY that my friend had to have a plumber go out to HER house on New Year’s Day – covered under a warranty – to snake HER plumbing… so obviously, residual clearing). After that… there were clearings for both of us to release that which causes us to take on the responsibility to do releasing work for the collective/oversouls, and to have to manifest that into our own realities as reflection so we’d see it (no more of THAT)! And there was actually a bunch of other cleanup work for us to do with ourselves… but WOW… what an AMAZING start to the next phase! This was completely reinforced by the AMAZING 5-hour online marathon we did on New Year’s Day on “The Ascended World: 2015 Spiritual/Metaphysical Kickoff”… so much flow, so much shining of the light gathered for that 5 hours! (If you missed it live, you can watch the recording, with speakers, topics, and time stamps posted, here.)
There have been a standing toilet jokes with the Trinity instructors who took class in Mt. Shasta with me in 2014; it started when we ran out of toilet paper at the place where all the students stayed… and it’s held on through the rest of the year, because it seemed that during several classes I taught – all in different locations – we would run out of toilet paper in the middle of class! Letting go… letting go… and we’ve been getting the message for at least six months!
Day 3 into this “freedom from the ocean of muck,” wow… what a difference! The past few days have begun to feel lighter and lighter, and MUCH different than the typical 3D “new year”! In letting all of that muck go… it’s a whole new world, a whole new Universe, without all of that holding us down… or holding us back.
So… SOAR forward, clean and free! NOW, the fun and the magic REALLY begin!
Much, much love, LIGHT, and FUN,
Angela Coulter
Originator, Trinity Energy Progression
Set Your Intention and Let Go
In the last 3 weeks a fierce s**t storm has arrived in my life. Literally, it hit me full on and I have been in the center of it until I realized I was holding on. I was holding on to the past, to the drama, the 3D. I also knew that I had chosen this to happen as I was not in full realization of my Divinity of how ALIVE I really AM and of my power to let go completely and I mean COMPLETELY.
What I am about to share with you is my experience through the storm and the full realization of what I am and what I can do and what I am doing now.
The storm was horrific and in the moment, I saw myself right in the center of it, holding on to this thin frail reed. This thin frail reed that had deep, strong roots. I knew that I just needed to let go. That was the difficult part. I did not know how to do it. So I fought against it until something just snapped. It was the reed. I saw myself in the vortex of the storm, tossed violently left and right, and up and down. I needed to experience the storm. Chose to experience it in the event I needed to be fully aware of my rebirth into WHO I REALLY AM.
STOP! JUST STOP! STOP THE MADNESS! What am I to learn from all of this? What is it? I kept asking. Kept asking until…
It was Thursday, December 11 at around 1 am in the morning when I was in the ER with my mother. She was in the hallway on a gurney because they did not have a room for her. My sister was on the 3rd floor on a ventilator fighting to live. It had been 8 hours of just waiting and as mom’s blood pressure was rising I was meditating. Tapping in and tuning into the Divine using what I have learned through the Trinity Energy Progression™ teachings and experience with Angela Beyer Coulter and so many others who I love so very much.
As I focused in on mom’s soul, eyes wide open I called on my higher self, my angels, my guides for help. I screamed for help! Everything faded into a bright white light around her and they came. One by one infusing her and I with their love. At that moment, I just let go. I let go of her, of my sister, of my life and they all turned to me and said, “You do realize that you are a living Divine being just like us? You do realize that you cannot die and that you like us, are alive on so many other levels of existence? You do realize that you are now alive in a way that you have never been before because you are fully awake and aware that you are living as a Divine being like us? Do you realize your Divinity? Do you see that you are able to let it all go and watch it flow because you are LIVING ETERNALLY?”
With that, I just sat there and felt their love, my love flow and let go. I died in a way… OR better said, I was REBORN. With the realization of WHO I AM I was REBORN. I set the intention to just let go because I AM ALIVE now and will continue to live forever. I am Divine. WE are Divine. We are forever alive and living. Everything that may be an irritant, a worry, a lack of time or a lack of this or that or the other is of no consequence because WE LIVE ETERNALLY FOREVER. This experience in the 3D is not limiting and does not have to continue to be difficult if we JUST LET GO.
Today and 3 weeks later, my sister is off the ventilator, breathing on her own. My mother is at home and has some health issues but that just doesn’t matter. I just don’t care in the way I did before. Time has changed, too. For instance I get up and I do what I want to do to get from point A and B; and do not even look at the clock because I know it just does not matter. I am FREE. I am DIVINE. I am moving at my pace on my own terms FOREVER in my DIVINITY to experience what I came here to do. Through Trinity and in the chamber I go every night on my own terms. I do not need or want of anything because everything is forever and is as it should be – PERFECT!
My experience like yours is mine. No pressure. Be who you came here to be. I love you FOREVER.
Sevi Costaras
Facilitator, Trinity Energy Progression™
The Power Behind Fun & Freedom
Did you ever think that spirituality could be FUN?? Meaning really fun and really exciting?? Well, it certainly can be; and I am here as living proof to tell you how. I used to be a very rigid person; and I always followed the rulebook. I created boxes around every experience I came into contact with, which became a way of life for me. I would only allow myself to carry out what “I had to do” in life–work , chores, and family/community obligations. I wouldn’t allow myself to have any fun because I always felt I didn’t have enough time for it; and that it simply wasn’t important. I couldn’t see outside of these boxes to save my life. I was VERY comfortable with this way of being. In my mind, it kept me “safe” and predictable….and feeling worthy and loved.
Just a few years ago, I had a huge spiritual awakening during which I became fascinated by what I was learning. I was guided to look deeper and to see that there is more to life than my seemingly safe, predictable boxes. I began to see that life really COULD be fun and that’s what life is really all about .. enjoying life and having fun with whatever I am experiencing.
As I cleared away my limiting beliefs with Trinity Energy Progression™— starting with my beliefs around having to feel safe, as well as around having to feel loved and worthy by following the rules and by DOING things for others all of the time. I discovered a new way to be. I allowed myself to look at what truly makes my heart sing and I discovered that it was DANCING. Yet, I hadn’t allowed myself to dance. Why not? My negative self-talk talked me out of it; yet none of those excuses came from divine truth. After several clearings with Trinity Energy Progression, I became free and I allowed myself to explore the possibilities of dance again. I decided to venture out by getting involved in a big community service project. I learned a popular dance routine, rounded up some people, taught them the routine, and then we performed it in front of a live audience. Talk about exhilarating and fun!!! I felt so connected to Creator each time I danced to the music– even though it wasn’t a spiritual song. At first I wondered how that was possible; but I just trusted and followed the flow …. and the flow said to “Keep On Dancing.” It was so exciting and FUN to reconnect with dance in this way!!! Furthermore, I was connecting with my higher self each time I did it and it became a spiritual experience. It helped me to move stuck energy and I was letting go. I allowed myself a new sense of freedom.
Soon after, I took the next step and signed up for Zumba classes. I found that I LOVED this dance style SO much ….and a year later I became a Zumba instructor. I LOVED to teach and to share my joy with others! In Zumba, it’s all about the fun and excitement and connecting with the music, not the perfection of the steps. It’s a big dance PARTY and it’s so liberating! Every time I taught a class, I felt a huge energetic shift and a release of negative energy. Sometimes I couldn’t get myself to meditate or sit in a silent space, but I could get myself to dance any day of the week. Dance IS a form of meditation, by the way. Movement is an extraordinary way to allow the freedom inside to blossom. It’s an expression of self… of creativity and flow. I went with the flow, and the freedom I felt was immeasurable. The movement was magical.
Ahhhh….how refreshing to know that it’s OKAY to have fun and freedom in my life, as well as to know that it was all part of my spiritual development. I once believed that spirituality had to be daunting and boring; but I cleared out those beliefs. I’m still dancing and I still use dance to connect to my higher self. I also combine Trinity Energy Progression with dancing to get healing energy in the room. It’s simply divine. I have endless ideas flowing through me in my next steps of dance evolution and the healing arts…. and it all started by making the decision to NOT to stay stuck and to STOP denying myself the FUN and FREEDOM of dance.
This is called transcendence. We are here for the party and it’s time to “Dance Away!!” But dance is not the only way to move stuck energy through fun and freedom. Laughter and humor are also powerful ways. Watch a funny movie, tell jokes, go to a comedy show, read a funny story. Share the humor with a friend and now you’ve really got an amusing snowball rolling….and it will be hard to stop it. Laughter in a group is even more powerful because you will feed off of each other; and you will keep laughing and laughing in a space that feels timeless. You can stay in a high vibrational state for hours after the laughter stops.
Fun can come in a lot of different packages. Don’t put expectations around how it has to look in order for it to be a spiritual experience. It can be transformational no matter how you define it. If you feel stuck and can’t move beyond the blockage… if you feel like it’s difficult to slow down enough to get into a quiet space….if you can’t get the mind chatter out of the way enough to meditate….try an exciting adventure. Break out and be FREE! Be open-minded and embrace new experiences. Discover your inner child of joy and wonder….anything that will raise YOUR vibration. There are endless ways to do this and the key is to ALLOW yourself to enjoy it …. to get the full experience from it; and to be grateful for it. You can catapult forward in amazing ways and you’ll have endless opportunities for releasing and clearing. Now that you have the gist of how liberating FUN and FREEDOM can be, go out there and get it! Move your way to energetic freedom. Find your inner child….as this is the MAGIC of everyday living. Don’t say no, just GO!!
Sandy Anthony
Facilitator, Trinity Energy Progression
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